Whatever we do in life, we must always put our mental health first... be it in friendship, love life, or work, we must prioritize our mental well-being before anything else.
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One of the things that has messed up my mental health is love, I am a passionate person and an overthinker but I don't show this side of me to people, only known to me.
The first situation that messed with my mental health was my first love, I spent 5 years of my life in pain because of her, I just couldn't get her off my mind and I would always wonder where and when things had gone so wrong, I lost interest in people and other things that gives me joy... I just wanted to be alone but that alone would not solve my problem, I needed something to keep me busy so I made hard work my companion...
I was so hard working and hardly communicated or gist with people around me, this made my boss love me cos I was dedicated to his work, he did not know I was in so much pain caused by love... No one knows not even my family, I was so good at keeping it a secret from everyone.... I would work so hard in the day, and cry alone at night when everyone was asleep, I have this favorite spot at the balcony where I would sit on a bench and shed those warm tears with no one to comfort me.
Why does it hurt so much? why did it take so long before I could heal from those pains? Why did I have to torture myself for being rejected by someone I fell in love with?
There is only one answer to all these questions, I was not ready to let go of her memories
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The memories of the past made it so hard to let go of her because those memories were beautiful and I cherished them... She was my first close friend as a girl, she was the first girl I spent a late night out with because her parent always come home late, she was the first girl that made me feel special as a friend, she was the first girl I walked the street with, she was the first I played so much with, all these memories were so beautiful and I do not want to lose them...
Whenever I remember those memories and how I wish she could be mine forever to continue creating more beautiful memories and also remember how that is not possible because I was rejected, it hurt so bad, it hurt more than a physical pain and all I could do was live a life of loneliness. I withdrew from others not giving anyone a chance to help me heal not until an Angel found me.
God bless the day I met this Angel, I tried pushing her away just like I did the rest but there is a saying that if someone has been sent to help you, they will do their work in your life no matter how you resist it.
Oh well Like I said, memories made my first love special, I gave love a second chance in my life and within a short time, I was healed completely... Only Love can heal a broken Heart
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