I have try sorting ways to change, i think it's time I pull out of this state of mine, altho i feel good, safe and secure, i love me that way, however i think its not too good to be in that zone, you see no matter which of the zone you belong to honestly i would recommend you find a common ground to blend things up, find a balance, a perfect mixture of both ends.
Talking about privacy, my space, my world, all about me, my personality, the things i love, cherish, valued, long for, this are all in my space and i would do anything to see them come through, protect and secure, well? Most part of it is cause of my upbringing, you know this thing about kids that stuck with them? I don't really know if thats it or its just my nature being an introvert, i rarely associate, relate, mingle, which is not too good, socializing is one good aspect of living, making friends, creating relationships, creating circles and close buddies, but you can't really do that when behind close doors.
I am particularly not a man of the crowds, i most times don't socialise that much, rather what i do is, i observe, study, the environment, the people the circumstance before i interact, even i was in uni, i just kept a few circle of friends very few that i can rely on trust, few persons that i know deep down and vice versa, not some bunch of people who i can really tell of their true nature, who really loves you or hate you, cause in the midst of every twelve there is bound to the judas.
Talking about the blend of the two sides which i posses, here's how they go, i feel very free so free with those i'm very close with i understand the fact that its one key attribute of an introvert person, they really can withhold so much but when in the midst of their circle of few they can really be so free as a bird in flight, talks, laugh, chit chat, and all of that stuff, but in the other hand when they are in the midst of those they are not so familiar with its can really be difficult to relate.
Due to this kind of life i rarely keep company of friends, back then when i was a child, i used to laughed at, even with every little mistake so mostly because of that i learned to keep my distance and secure my parameters to those i truly feel confident with.
Trying to free up a little bit, opening my doors to creating more friends, relationships, memories that will talks about tomorrow, cause i feel no matter how wealthy one is, there will come a time when you need people in your life real humans to spend quality time, create a wonderful time together.
Let me hear from your perspective, about either of these two sides and to what extend do you blend them....
THANKS FOR YOUR TIME
