It's almost abnormal to feel normal.
I've been quite stringently within the neutral range the past few days. A few self criticisms, mostly on actions, but that's about it. No specific self-hate or self-love, and most of the time just feeling neutral. I'm existing, and it's okay.
Feeling this level of normality less than 2 months after I fell to such depths does seem rather strange. It certainly makes me question the reality of what I felt before, even though I know it felt very real at the time. I suppose this self-doubting is just a run-of-the-mill part of the cycle.
At any rate, I'm not going to dig any deeper than the surface here. It's a good time to embrace this relatively neutral place I've found myself in. As soon as I'm done writing this post, I'll meditate for a few moments (assuming I won't fall asleep lol), go eat, and sleep. I'll have to be up early again, so sleep is essential now.
Cheers, folks!
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