Right now, I’m not really the best of myself that I have envisioned because I have a lot of goals I’m yet to achieve but then, I’m working on it. I’m way better now than I was some years ago. Whenever I look at myself in the mirror, I always smile because I keep seeing a lady who is putting in effort to be the best version of herself. After I recently got admission to a university here in my country to study Human physiology, I had so many struggles and situations that needed my attention and at some point it almost got the best of me and it was at that point I made a resolve never to give up trying (that won’t be the first time though, lol).
I think it was about 3 weeks ago I genuinely made a plan that I would love to stick with to help guide me through my journey even though these tough moments in my life. As a student, I’m not so fortunate to just focus only on my studies, I have to work too and also do well academically. Well, so far so good, it has been a great experience because I see how far things have been a lot bearable since I started working on some few habits of mine.
Prior to now, I was very lazy and less determined when it comes to giving my best to the things that need my attention and the moment I realized how that has been affecting me, I made conscious effort towards making amends and one of the things I did was adjusting my time for starting my day. Normally, I always like sleeping late and by default, I most times tend to wake up late too and that always make my day unproductive but now, I try to sleep earlier than usual so I can wake up early to start my day and it has been really productive for me.
As someone once said, you can’t keep doing the same thing in the same way and expect a different result.
So, if I’m at my best self, it has to be now because I’m more determined and motivated to get my goals accomplished and also, I’m in the university too trying to get the degree and also I’m also trying my best to relate more with people offline than I normally do and so many other things.
My worst self? I was my worst self about three years ago when I was still at home. I found myself in a place where it felt like I was living the same day everyday. I literally was doing one thing for almost a year. There was hardly any growth in my life outside hive and it affected me. I was worried of when I’d get admission into the university and my family wasn’t doing so well financially too. Now, I have gotten the admission and my family is doing better than before and I’m coping a little better with my academics than before too.
But I must acknowledge the fact that my worst self was my greatest motivation to being my best self. I hated some of the things I did and I made conscious efforts to make sure I don’t do them again and fortunately for me, so far, there has been great improvements and I’m happy with the person I am now and the person I’m becoming.
