Unbecoming

in #hive-16115517 days ago

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They turn the lights on
and the shadows in the room, went bleak the stance of my defense,
just to brush your hands off my chest.
the knife in my palms just cut your words into little pieces
that I already digested
the thing that was known to me
from the seeds that I planted in my memory capsule.
then I opened years later and have to clean out the castle.
see un be known to me
All of my days have been spent trying to become the thing
that I’ve learned to be while I was walking the streets
trying to sip the tea
that I thought was made for me,
and so I drink till I can no longer drink
to realize the thing that I had become was a freak
I had became a fruitless tree
that can no longer feed off of the beliefs in my seas,
for all they did was harvest in me
The unbelievable thing
Mr. Hyde was deceased.
Dr. Jekyll was the king
just to fight with the shadows of becoming the thing
the world didn’t make me all it did was make me bleed,
but when I was patched up, I was the one that bought the bullets to eat.
I bought them for you but secretly I threw them at me.
look at what I become
a shell of a man holding an empty gun with the reflection that doesn’t even match my complexion
and a ego that thinks he’s bigger than all gods children
He thinks he’s different
that God would allow him to go missing. He’s only a mustard seed and God‘s presence to un become the lessons.
To unlearn the choices that made it hot in the kitchen
to become one
with who I was before
the trauma took over
to put my weapon back in its holder
to allow the chauffeur to take me into a place of no longer being the wolf in sheeps clothing
To un become what happened to me, just become victory at its peak
and no longer fall by the waste of the streams
to allow the eagle in me to be a sight to see to un become the words because they’re not my worth to un become the hurt
and let them fall to the dirt
because though I was made from the Earth, I am the seed that gives birth
so though I was, I will no longer continue to be for there is a different monster inside of me
to let free,
and when you see that beast
he will have un become the nightmares of your dreams
just to become the thing that you look for to find peace
if he can change maybe I can loosen the rings and un become all of my things
That i keep hidden in the choices i make