I've had a lot of instances where I made my breaking points into turning points for the sake of my mental health. I don't think I've had any special guide on how to care for my mental health but somehow, it's been my priority to care since my experience in dealing with the risk of losing it.
It's sad that I've had my mental health messed up from my childhood days no thanks to the situation of my parent separation, it took a toll on how I acted and grew up to a great extent. Thankfully, it didn't turn out so bad in who I am today as I learnt over time how to make the best out of such situations in my life and mind care.
One time I can never forget that messed with my mind everyday that period was when I got a job at a law firm. I had never experienced being insulted until that period especially from someone I least expected and he didn't do it like he was wrong about it. I remember getting all the bad compliments from my boss like I committed a huge crime, it was despiriting.
I had this thought that maybe I'm not doing my best and I had to step up my game to satisfy him and hopefully get rid of his bad energy towards me, and of course to keep getting my pay. I can still remember how I began to feel like I wasn't worth the peanut he was paying, he made me feel that way.
It went on for two months until he took it too far, he began to insult and look down on my parents for what they can never do. I felt like I created the forum for him to do such a thing and it made me feel even worse. I went home that day, talked to mum about it as I couldn't continue holding it to myself.
With mum's advice, my resolution to see nothing wrong about me and the efforts I gave to the firm, I stopped working there with no prior notice. I thought going there with a resignation letter will only make things worse because he won't let me go without a word fight again, I was so sure.
I can still remember how relieved, happier and better I felt even though I had nothing to do for the rest of the month. The peace of mind and positive thinking that comes with a turning point was worth everything I gave up for it and I was so glad I did. Today, I think back to that time and I don't feel sad anymore because I fought and overcame.
The most recent time I've had to avoid breaking down but instead make a turn that has been significant in my life was separating myself from a friend I thought was for me but wasn't. We still talk today but I've set boundaries that seem impenetrable unlike before. I've learned and I'm still learning to fight for my mental health first in whatever situation threatens.
It's no joke how deep some experience could go in one's life if care is not taken. I've had many experiences but thankfully, they made me stronger and I know better to put my health first, whether mental or physical or even psychological. We own no one and no one own us, happiness is free and I'm sticking to that thought for me.
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