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“Wait!! Am I really old?”
Wondering. All of a sudden from watching from a distance that actually, nothing seems to stare. Memories of the past flashback in my mind. Then on, comparing the kind of life I am right now. It hurts a little bit, it's as if something’s aching in my chest. Saddened feelings brought by happenings from the past. It’s a heavy sensation in my chest that I had no idea why.
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“Hey, it’s your turn. Yeah, it’s my turn to fetch drinkable water from a distant water source.”
Looking back from the past and remembering the things from before. It’s far from how it used to be. Life now seems easier and better but not happier. Yes, growing old seems a bit of a hassle and hard. Working hard and trying hard to make sure to have the things wanted. However forgotten, the essence of happiness cannot be achieved through things and achievements but instead, it’s a feeling the way you live with it.
“Hahaha”
Wait, what am I laughing at? Nothing, it was in the past when someone played but failed. It’s silly how funny it was back then even in the stupidest thing. I envied how I could laugh out loud so hard from before because I found it very hard now. A laugh that almost broke my jaw even though it's just simple and maybe even nonsense. It’s cheesy when I think of it now. Well, today it’s like life should be scripted; Everything you do should be planned.
I miss those days but of course I can not abandon what I have right now. Indeed, without a doubt I’m getting older and I need these things even though there are many sacrifices that must be made. Example, forgetting my hobby to go outside and capture each moment and going home where my heart belongs. I know life is not a game to play so I take it seriously despite the ups and downs often.
I know there’s a time for that even though it’s not always. The memories will remain memories but teaches me and pushes me to become who I am now. Also, the memories of my younger days made me happy whenever I felt like blaming this kind of world of mine. Thanks to those, I kept going and helped me to realize that living is fun. Also, I know “happily ever after” can’t only be found in fairy tales. In real life as well as long you make sure you’d choose the right path.
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ABOUT ME
Paul was born in Macrohon, Southern Leyte but currently living in Cahayag, San Francisco Southern Leyte. He graduated the course of a BS Mar-E or Bachelor of Science in Marine Engineering in 2019. Although writing is his passion so instead of sailing he decided on writing.
He writes occasionally about random stuff he would see in the outside world. He loves to express what he feels through writing because he's not good at speaking personally.
He also writes fictional stories and emotions because he thinks life matters. He is hoping that his words could reach someone who might be feeling down.
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