Lo Bueno de Ser Depresivo (🇪🇸 | 🇺🇸)

  Before I start, I want to clarify first of all that when I set up my Previous Post, what I was looking for was to explain my condition, what my experience has been and above all, how I got to where I am today. However, in my head I didn't have anything put together, my ideas were coming out fluently and the direction my text took went to everything negative, bringing out my helplessness, frustration, and anger (dare I say) for being depressive and experiencing in my youth such bad experiences.

  So since last week I had the idea for this post. Talking about the positives of depression (even if it sounds strange), after reading about so many experiences and many other points of view from different amazing users who have participated in the initiative, inspired me also to put together this post. So I'm getting started:

  What's good about being depressed? We know the level of deep emotions that cause a tear and a smile. We know exactly what it is to be extremely sad and therefore avoid making a person feel that way.

  We know about destructive criticism, harmful opinions, and interested people. However, we are always open to offering a helping hand to anyone who needs it, we are always sincere and when we make friends with someone, we do it in an honest, genuine, and complete manner.

  We do not know half measures and we have lived so much with loneliness that we know how to be good company in a silent way and avoid judging those who approach us.

  Having said that, one of the things I want to clarify is that Depression is NOT Inherited. However, you can genetically acquire some conditions that make you more prone to the disease but this does not mean that you will suffer from it.

  That is to say, it is easier to explain it by comparing this condition with being diabetic. Having diabetic parents or relatives who have been diabetic, genetically exposes you to suffer from diabetes at some point in your life or there is also the case that you will never suffer from it if you take good care of yourself. The same happens with depression in the case of family members who have suffered from the same in the past.

  Now, my case is unique. I remember commenting that I was born with it, but it is because the doctor told me when I saw him that I was lucky to be born with it, he confirmed it after seeing my medical studies. He also told me that several babies are usually born with this condition, but as they grow up some outgrow it and others have to live with it for the rest of their lives. Likewise, to explain myself better I must go a little deeper into this aspect of my life.

  My birth was not normal. I was born prematurely, I understand that I was born at 8 months or just about to be 8 months old. This was due to an accident my mother had with me. She fell in the bathroom and tripped her belly against the toilet. This caused the amniotic fluid to solidify as the hours passed.

  Which in turn meant that my mom had to have an emergency cesarean section. Doing that and spending so many hours in the womb did not allow me to receive enough oxygen and caused me to be born with respiratory and later heart problems. According to the doctors at the time, they gave me days to live, even weeks, to be optimistic.

  In short, the doctors told my mother that if I survived, there would be after-effects in my body from what happened, but more on a mental level from spending so much time without adequate oxygen to my brain.

  However, I don't think any of this had anything to do with my current condition (or maybe it influenced it to some extent, I don't know and I'm not sure, I don't want to know either). I still believe that I was born this way. And the doctor confirmed it. So it makes it easier for me to accept myself as I am with this, seeing it from this point of view.

  Besides, going through that experience does not imply that I have Asperger's. I honestly think the same thing happens with parents who are highly healthy, exercise and take care of their bodies, but when they have a child, the child is born with diabetes and asthma.

  There have been cases of cases. And mine I think leans more to that side. Added to the fact that in my family there were family members who suffered from depression, this did put me in a place where my tendency to be that way was somewhat predisposed.

  But basically what happens in my body is that my brain does not produce normal levels of certain neurotransmitters, such as endorphin, serotonin, and other nines that are responsible for keeping people happy and with a very broad and pleasant level of tolerance. You can read more about this HERE.

  Now to my point. What helped me to understand myself better, to cope with my condition, and to turn it around with willpower, as well as to see the positive side of depression.

  In 2017 I took a Neurolinguistic Programming (NLP) course that lasted 8 months. It was internal and deep work, every week that I did with other companions along the way, whose experience for me was like seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. If you have the opportunity to learn this subject, do it because it helps a lot to know yourself better and to Awaken Consciousness.

  There they gave me techniques that allowed me to understand myself more and get to know myself better. It was incredible. My change was radical and now that I think about it, I feel that there was a very pronounced before and after where I visualize Ivanna Deprimida in a loving way, accepting her as she is and above all comforting her knowing that it is not her fault to be the way she is.

  Now, what else have I done if I have not been able to seek help? Well, there are many books, including those of Louise Hay that after reading have prompted me to look for videos of daily affirmations to listen to in the morning and at night before going to sleep. This somehow, believe it or not, helps me to reprogram my mind in a magical way, which allows me to enjoy my day-to-day life more.

  It is with these daily affirmations that I can say that I have improved a lot on an emotional level, just as I did during my PNL course. That's why I try to keep my daily streak to take a few minutes upon waking up and before going to bed the following videos:

• MORNING RESCHEDULING

• NIGHTTIME RESCHEDULING

  I also listen to a lot of instrumental music that helps me stay calm and focus on the here and now (which is all we have). In case I suffer a crisis or relapse, I apply deep breathing techniques, I hug myself, and above all, I am very patient with myself when I feel this bad.

  If I need to cry, I cry and I avoid all those bad thoughts that go around in my mind alluding and exaggerating that everything is bad in a catastrophic way, as if I could never get over it, when in fact it is a bad moment that at some point will pass. Emotions are not eternal.

  Feeling overwhelmed, sad, or anxious for a few minutes doesn't mean it will be that way for hours, days, months, or years. It's just a bad moment and I repeat it to myself a lot until I get my mind blank after focusing my thoughts on my breathing, on the air going in and out of my lungs.

  These techniques and listen to music to vibrate high like this other video:

• Aura Cleansing

  This is what has helped me to overcome my crises. As for my relapses (which are stronger circumstances of my organism), it is mostly because my body as such collapses, and already in those moments I have to go to a specialist urgently. I have experienced this situation 4 times in all my 38 years and for me, each one has been worse than the previous one.

  And well, as the years go by, so do the illnesses. So for my part, I just have to accept this fact and continue on my way, coping with the adversities as best I can.

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𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬

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  Before I end my post, I want to add that in saying that I suspect I have Asperger's is because I currently have not been able to visit a specialist to clinically diagnose me with an interview. However, I have taken online tests that have given me results that tell me that I am this way.

  But actually as I said, no doctor has told me directly. On the other hand what increases my suspicions is that, after taking the test for the second time on the internet and talking to my mom about it, she told me that I am Asperger and that everyone in her family has this spectrum, just at different levels.

  She commented to me that the psychiatrist who last saw me at the end of 2016, told her in consultation that I am autistic spectrum. We have something or do something (those of us who are like this) that identifies us at a glance. But how did the doctor draw this conclusion with me? From experience. His brother is autistic and also bipolar, it was because of him that he decided to study psychiatry.

  As for me, I have never been told to my face that I am Asperger. So I hope to confirm it at some point when I get a chance to see someone who is a specialist. I wanted to put together a post about it later and share it with you.

  The point is, this post was made to give you more information about me and to give you self-help tips. But always, always, the best thing to do is to see a doctor and go to therapy for a long time because everyone's head has its rhythm and evolution, which means that some people can solve their problems in 2 sessions, while others need to go for life (as in my case).

  I sincerely hope this post is useful to someone, I apologize for how mega long it was, I was inspired and I wanted to be honest and open again with you. I wish all of you who took a few minutes to read me a happy start to the week. 💚

  Antes de iniciar quiero aclarar primero que al armar mi Post Anterior, lo que realmente buscaba era explicar mi condición, lo que ha sido mi experiencia y sobre todo, cómo he llegado a donde estoy hoy. Sin embargo, en mi cabeza no tenía armado nada, simplemente mis ideas fueron saliendo fluidamente y la dirección que tomó mi texto se fue a todo lo negativo, sacando a relucir mi impotencia, frustración e ira (me atrevo a decir) por ser depresiva y experimentar en mi juventud tan malas experiencias.

  Así que desde la semana pasada tengo la idea en mente de este post. Hablar sobre lo positivo de la depresión (aunque suene extraño), luego de leer de tantas experiencias y de muchos otros puntos de vista de diferentes usuarios increíbles que han participado en la iniciativa, me inspiraron también para armar esta publicación. Así que doy inicio:

  ¿Qué tiene de bueno ser depresivo? Nosotros sabemos el nivel de emociones profundas que causan una lágrima y una sonrisa. Conocemos a ciencia exacta lo que es estar sumamente triste y por consiguiente evitamos hacer sentir así a una persona.

  Conocemos de críticas destructivas, de opiniones dañinas y de personas interesadas. Con todo y eso siempre estamos abiertos a brindar una mano amiga a quien lo necesite, somos sinceros siempre y cuando nos hacemos amigos de alguien, lo hacemos de manera honesta, genuina y completa.

  No conocemos las medias tintas y hemos convivido tanto con la soledad que sabemos cómo ser buena compañía de manera silenciosa y evitamos juzgar a quienes se nos acercan.

  Dicho lo anterior, una de las cosas que quiero aclarar es que La Depresión NO se Hereda. Sin embargo, se pueden adquirir genéticamente algunas afecciones que nos hagan más propensos a padecer la enfermedad pero esto no significa que la vas a sufrir.

  Es decir, se me hace más sencillo explicarlo comparando esta condición con lo de ser diabético. Tener padres diabéticos o familiares que hayan sido diabéticos, genéticamente te exponen a que sufras de diabetes en algún punto de tu vida o también existe el caso de que no lo sufras nunca si te cuidas muy bien. Así ocurre con la depresión en el caso de que familiares hayan sufrido de lo mismo en el pasado.

  Ahora bien, mi caso es único. Y recuerdo haber comentado que nací con eso, pero es porque el doctor me comentó cuando me vi con él, que corrí con la suerte de nacer con eso, él me lo confirmó luego de ver mis estudios médicos. También me dijo que varios bebés suelen nacer con esta condición, pero a medida que crecen algunos lo superan y otros deben vivir con ella por el resto de su vida. Así mismo, para explicarme mejor debo profundizar un poco en este aspecto de mi vida.

  Mi nacimiento no fue normal. Nací antes de tiempo, tengo entendido que nací a los 8 meses o apenas estaba por cumplir los 8 meses. Esto debido a un accidente que tuvo mi mamá conmigo. Se calló en el baño y tropezó su barriga contra el inodoro. Esto hizo que el líquido amniótico se solidificara. conforme pasaban las horas.

  Lo que a su vez implicó que mi mamá tuviera que hacerse una cesárea de emergencia. Hacer eso y pasar tantas horas en el útero, no me permitió recibir oxígeno suficiente e hizo que naciera con problemas respiratorios y posteriormente del corazón. Según los médicos de aquel entonces me daban días de vida, incluso semanas, siendo optimistas.

  En fin, de manera resumida, los doctores le afirmaron a mi mamá que de sobrevivir, quedarían secuelas en mi organismo por lo ocurrido, pero esto más a nivel mental por pasar tanto tiempo sin el oxígeno adecuado a mi cerebro.

  Sin embargo nada de esto pienso yo, que tuvo que ver con mi condición actual (o tal vez influyó hasta cierto punto, no lo sé ni estoy segura, tampoco quiero saberlo). Sigo creyendo que nací así. Y el doctor me lo confirmó. Por lo que se me hace más sencillo aceptarme como soy con esto, viéndolo desde este punto de vista.

  Además, pasar por esa experiencia no implica que sea Asperger. Honestamente pienso que pasa lo mismo de padres que son altamente saludables, hacen ejercicios y cuidan su organismo pero al tener un hijo este nace con diabetes y asma.

  Se han visto casos de casos. Y el mío creo que se inclina más a ese lado. Sumado a que en mi familia si hubo familiares que sufrieron de depresión, esto sí me colocó en un lugar donde mi tendencia a ser así estaba algo predispuesta.

  Pero básicamente lo que ocurre en mi organismo es que mi cerebro no produce niveles normales de ciertos neurotransmisores, como la endorfina, serotonina y otras ninas que se encargan de mantener a las personas felices y con un nivel de tolerancia muy amplio y ameno. Pueden leer más sobre esto AQUI.

  Ahora a lo que voy. Qué me ayudó a entenderme mejor, a sobrellevar mi condición y darle la vuelta con fuerza de voluntad, así como también verle el lado positivo a la depresión.

  En 2017 hice un curso de Programación Neurolingüística (PNL) que duró 8 meses. Fue un trabajo interno y profundo, de manera semanal que hice con otros compañeros de camino, cuya experiencia para mí fue como ver la luz al final del túnel. Si tienen la oportunidad de aprender este tema, háganlo porque ayuda mucho a conocerse más y a Despertar la Conciencia.

  Allí me dieron técnicas que me permitieron entenderme más y conocerme más. Fue increíble de verdad. Mi cambio fue radical y ahora que lo pienso, siento que hubo un antes y un después muy pronunciado donde visualizo a la Ivanna Deprimida de manera amorosa, aceptándola tal cual es y sobre todo consolándola al saber que no es su culpa ser como es.

  Ahora, ¿qué más he hecho si no he podido buscar ayuda? Pues existen muchos libros, entre ellos los de Louise Hay que tras leerlos me han impulsado a buscar videos de afirmaciones diarias para escuchar en la mañana y en la noche antes de dormir. Esto de alguna manera y aunque no lo crean, me ayuda a reprogramar mi mente de manera mágica, lo que me permite disfrutar más de mi día a día.

  Es con estas afirmaciones diarias que puedo decir que he mejorado mucho a nivel emocional, tal como lo hice durante mi curso de PNL. Por eso intento mantener mi racha diaria para tomarme unos minutos al despertar y antes de acostarme los siguientes videos: