Many years ago when I was around the age of ten, we had this two storey building in my area that I and my friends would usually climb to the top and would have a perfect view of the entire ghetto that we were living in at the time.
And most times, whenever I climbed up there alone, I always heard this inner voice, urging me to jump down, knowing fully well that if I did, I wouldn't come out of it alive. That always scared me and for a moment I had thought that I was possessed and it was death whispering to me, urging me to make that jump.
But many years later, I got to realize that I wasn't the only one who usually felt that way whenever they climb high up onto things, and that kinda placed my mind at ease because if it was happening to some other people, then it meant that it wasn't just a me problem and I wasn't possessed like I had thought, or maybe we all were possessed...and if there was one thing I prefer, it is to be possessed as a group, rather than being possessed alone... Lol
Anyways, it's been years ever since I've had that feeling and that is probably due to fact that I always try my best to avoid putting myself in that situation where I'm in a high rise building.
But for a while now, I've been having another kind of intrusive thought, one that isn't really as dangerous as jumping out of a building. This started some few years back when my barber was a very talented guy who also was deaf and dump.
Whenever I went to his shop, all I had to do was show him a picture of the haircut I wanted and he had the rest covered. But whenever it was time for him to line up my hair, I always get this urge to move my head abruptly, thereby spoiling the whole line up in the process.
It's a very weird thing to want to do, considering I will be the one suffering the consequences but I always feel that way every time, and every time I fight it off by closing my eyes and just thinking about something random whenever the barber is lining me up.
I really don't know if I'm the only one who feels this way and if there's a solution to this weird feeling, but if there is, hopefully I will find a solution to it soon enough.
