I'm in a pretty place right now. It is surrounded by lots of green, which makes the place really vibrant despite the sadness I felt in it. After staying here for 10 minutes, I told Mama how sad this place is. Maybe because the real beauty it has before is now gone. It is neglected, maybe the people living here are all busy, which is why. I remember this place as a beautiful place, but now it is just a sad place for me.
But seriously though, waiting is really tiring. I want to go home, and I want to lay my body in my bed. I'm actually regretting now that I came with them to this place. Although it's been a long time since I last visited this place, I still should've never just said yes, aigooo. Now I'm really regretting it. What am I going to do with the foods when it is this boring (。ŏ﹏ŏ). The oldies are busy talking with the folks while me and Mama chose to stay outside.
We're not really that close to the people here. It is the oldies that they are close with. And y'all know that I am not a sociable person. Even if someone initiated a talk to me, I always wanted to run away, and that's why I always ended up letting them feel that I wanted to stop the talk, I will turn my back on them first ( ꈍᴗꈍ). Mama is the same, she's also not very talkative. She'd rather watch on her phone than chat with someone she didn't know, hahaha. Aigooo.
I know it's not a good act, but what to do? My mind and heart reacted first to the fact to the fact that I get shy around everyone. Like, I am so awkward, I know some of you here know that already, but I feel like day by day I'm getting worse. I just want to be one with nature. I am okay just to be a pretty wildflower. I'm okay with just bees, butterflies, and caterpillars that communicate with me. I think being a flower fits my characteristics.
I can just stay still in one corner and wait for anyone to compliment my vibrant color (≧▽≦). Anyone here who wants to be a flower like me?