Someone who is very dear to my heart said to me one time how he loves how it takes little to get me very happy. Depending on who hears or reads this, they may like or dislike him. Truth is it takes very little to make me happy. Why? Mostly because I am the One who makes me happy. I get giddy over little things.
In this era and the economy I have found myself, I have to be intentional about finding happiness or else, depression is only a stone throw away. Coming from a place where I was always depressed and had no energy to do anything at all, I know how much it sucks out of you just being there. Now, that inflation is a steady activity in my country and we struggle to meet up with demands and pressures from the society, it is very critical that my mental state is in good balance. It can become very easy to just tip and fall off.
If anyone reads my posts, they would already know things that make me happy. Family, movies, music, books, sleep, food and gist. I rarely get any sleep these days and that has the most negative effect on me. To sleep is not easy at all not when I am plagued with nightmares of a dying economy and an empty wallet. I do not know how it is for others but I am a little scared of being broke. Been there, done that and it is not a nice feeling. Here I am again and my dreams haunt me. So, I stay up and get things done even when I can do them the next day to distract myself. In the end, I am sleep deprived and any little amount of sleep without nightmares is precious to me.
Despite the murky situations of things, watching my mom sleep, eat and watch TV really makes me happy. I love that she can do these things, as she is the only close family I have. I know people who have no one and I just feel overall grateful that she is still with me and by my side. Recently, I have not been able to read any new book but I have gone back to re-reading old ones that brought me so much distraction because it takes me mind off things. Reading about different worlds and getting lost in the characters help me take the edge off.
I am very happy when I see food and these days, I only see it once a day. I am at the lowest of my life I have not been in a while. The last time I was in such a situation was years ago. However, it still makes me happy that I have anything to eat at all. I have come across people who do not have such privilege and I am just grateful. I decided to focus on my feelings of gratitude and what do you know, I am happy with having anything to eat at all. This too, shall pass.
Movies just like books, especially Rom-Coms, make me laugh. I laugh and forget my situation or the mess of it. Movies insert me into a story that is not mine and after I am done, I am grateful that I have the access to Netflix. Not everyone does. Gratitude comes a long way in my happiness. I also enjoy talking with my peeps. As of late, @tengolotodo and @jhymi keep me sane. Tengo with his age-old wisdom and humor. It can never be a dull moment with him. Jhymi, with her smart mouth and stories. We talk about everything and she always knows what to say. In addition, we both have book boyfriends. I cannot explain more than that.
In conclusion, I find happiness within my house. I find peace and contentment doing little things. Just cooking makes me feel on top of the world. Taking a walk does a lot for my sanity. I know that I have to be intentional about my happiness and as Tengo tells me, “there are no bad things just some not good things”.
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