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Hello, my friends and family.
I have a lot on my mind right now, and I'm in the process of writing several blog posts, but I am very particular about editing and I don't have the energy to finish the main one today, figured I would make a shorter post regardless.
There has been a lot of craziness in my life lately, as you would all know if you read my previous posts. I reconnected with a friend I cut off because I lived at his house for 2 months, and I felt the need to at least stay in contact. Well, it was a terrible idea, and I should have remembered that I blocked him for a reason.
I am writing a full post on it, so I will sum it up quickly for you. He asks to hang out, I say yes and we drive to what I thought was going to be home, but it was a house with a ton of needles and meth pipes everywhere. He brought me there to see if I could live there, I don't know what the F#@% he was thinking I have been sober since 2/26/22. He also needed to lie to his dad to get his microwave and sell it to these drug dealers for some fake Oxycodone pain pills that were pressed with fentanyl.
A lot more details, but let's just say he was really messed up the whole night, I forced him to take me home, and I told him I am never hanging out with him again.
I applied to like 25 places on indeed, and no word back yet. I have been getting even worse health-wise, and I don't know where I am going to live if I don't get a job soon, or if I'm just too unhealthy to work.
The main thing is just staying sober, and I do not want to use drugs or alcohol whatsoever, but I have no clue what I will do if I am homeless and sick. Let's just say my mom is not a fan of the idea of me coming back to her house. My life seems like it is a complete disaster, and I don't know what to do at this point, I am just trying to fix my sleeping habits, and get out of this pit I seem to be stuck in. Wish me luck, I hope it all works out. I cannot let the unknowns of life bring me back into a depressed state, I will not let it happen. Crazy that this is the first time I have been this physically sick and not mentally doing terrible in probably 10+ years.
I feel very sick right now so I'm gonna hop off and go to sleep.
Hats off to all the people who have been supporting me on Hive. They are the best company I have had in my life, and I am extremely thankful for their undying positive attitude, which can probably bring a person in the worst mental state ever back to happiness
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