We talked about everything no matter how little. We talked about everyone that made his days beautiful at work, and those that stressed him. We talked about life in general, his ambitions, and even his love life. All this has been going on for just six months, and honestly, I saw him as nothing but a friend.
He is that friend that made my days beautiful and lively. He is that kind of friend that makes sure that even though I don’t step out of my room, I would have the daily gist in detail even to the littlest ones, as much as it’s worth talking about. He is that friend that doesn’t want to see me sad or even mad. He is there when I need to rant or just talk.
Even though I am in no love relationship, it felt like my life was complete because I have him as my friend because he filled every space needed to be filled by a love just that sometimes, there are limits to the extent our conversations can go.
He jokingly asked me one day what my genotype was, and I said, AS. “Oh, that’s not a problem”, he responded. “Of course, it isn’t for as long as my man is AA”, I said. He smiled, and that was the end of the conversation. Then, we moved on to be the friends that we are… the ones that talks about everything and anything and make sure our lives never get boring.
I haven’t known him for a very long time, but it felt like I have known him all my life. I actually, didn’t think much to the daily conversations. In fact, I never thought of having any conversation with myself about it, because I feel like friendship is just perfect.
One day, I waited for his early morning call as usual, but I got none. “Maybe the day was busy”, I thought, so I gave it sometime.
He used to call at noon when he’s on work break too, but I got no call either. “Maybe the work was too much today that he forgot to take a break”, I thought. Well, the time was 3:30pm, and I heard nothing from him, and at that point, I started sweating heavily.
I couldn’t think straight or even focus on completing my tasks for the day. I felt so empty and like my life was being snuggled out of me. I felt like I was about to die because of the imagination of the many scenarios in my head. And, to think that the country is not even safe, I couldn’t but imagine what my life would be like without hearing from him.
I waited till night, maybe he would call, but I got none. At that point, I knew something was not right. I felt so heavy in my heart that I didn’t know when the tears started running down my cheeks. I prayed hard that nothing bad had happened to him. I sent texts, called, and even WhatsApp messages, but I got no response.
Then, it dawned on me that I was completely attached to him, and he is part of my life whether I like it or not. He has already engraved his prints in my heart, and I couldn’t bear anything cleaning it off. I was completely lost in thought, and deep there, I realized that I was in love with this friend.
He had jokingly said it once before that we became more than friends, but I rejected it for no important reason. But now, I realized that the reason I had no reason for rejecting him was because I had fallen in love with him without realizing it. “Love finds you when you are not looking”, right? Well, I think it found me, and the thought of not hearing from this man in a day is making my heartbeat rapidly with the thought of something fatal happening.
Oh, it was a dream. God forbid bad thing, I said before opening my eyes fully. While I was trying to stay fully awake, I got the call. It was him, my prospective love.
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