You know how you feel—you have everything about your life under control? And that nothing could ever go wrong? Well, let's just say we humans propose and God disposes. Well, I started this year feeling optimistic about everything, and I really loved how it started, even though some things weren't really okay, but somehow, I was still happy because, in my mind, I had everything I needed to start a new year, and I thought to myself, I'm going to be serious, and I would do this and that. I made a lot of resolutions for 2023. Well, well, lets just say not everything worked out as i planned and somehow lost concerntration at some point and everything just went haywire
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The first issue started with my school, and I wouldn't even call it an issue, but I will call it something else. Let me pit it in this manner: I needed to be more focused in class because, as a part-time student who didn't receive lectures every day, I had to make sure I had everything I needed in place to have a successful academic year, not that I'm anywhere done with school.
So I had to let go of one thing; my activeness online was what went for it. I had to let go of writing daily at a point, then it stopped, not by choice but because I got overwhelmed. Some days I would feel like crying, and sometimes I would even break down and cry because I was so so overwhelmed.
And doing all this, I still have to perform mom and wifey duties. Well, well, I really do try my best in this aspect, and I can say most of these things I did went unnoticed by those who were close to me; they never saw how I struggled to keep up with everything. At a point I had to take a loan to help me pay my fee; this particular loan hasn't even been paid back, even though I promised to pay it back soonest. Still, with this heat, my phone went bad, and I had to get another, which made me start a power down for it, but before the power down was completed, I had to borrow it from a few friends, which I paid with my power down.
A lot and much more stuff, like very personal stuff, shifted my focus from my new year resolution. In a way, I sometimes feel I might have made some kind of decision that is part of the reason why my goals for the year didn't come to manifestation.
AM I BACK NOW?
I am currently on my last semester for my ND PROGRAME. I don't plan to leave my education at this stage; I plan to still get that educational goal achieved even though some personal goals cannot be settled yet. I am not fully back on hives, but I believe with time I will get used to writing daily or frequently, and with time all will get back in place. This is one thing I am very sure about, even though it seems as if it might not be possible. I BELIEVE
So this isn't a resolution post; it's just more of me expressing how I feel about the year 2023. It really has been an eventful year, and kinda I'm not ending it on the note I would have loved, but it's still cool.
