Throughout my childhood, I have always been the life of any friend group. If I wasn't there then the group would feel incomplete. My friends always reminded me about how lively and joyous my company. I was kinda popular in school, even amongst seniors cause I was very friendly and I talked a lot.
But when I hit puberty, I started becoming conscious of some stupid unimportant things that had no meaning. I was slowly becoming an introvert. It became worse when I had to move to a new school. I had to make new friends, and I found that to be more difficult than anything in this world. For a whole day, I spoke not more than ten words. My classmates had thought I couldn't speak before because when they asked me questions I wouldn't reply. I was so scared they would hate me. I graduated from highschool with no friends at all.
So when I gained admission into higher institution I was so scared that it would be highschool all over again. I hated making new friends, bit I had to.
I got to the university and there were so many people everywhere. My department had almost 200students in 100lvl.
But what surprised me most was that on the first day of class, I made two friends. The second day I made two more who later became my closest friends in my department. Each day I kept making more and more friends which surprised me. I didn't even talk too much but they wanted to talk to me.
I act like myself around these friends of mine. They love me for who I am and I'm not self conscious when I'm around them. I don't pretend to be someone else or stay quiet for a whole day cause I'm scared they might not like me. I don't do that anymore. I am happy that God gave me good university friends and not the bad ones that would have broken me more than I already was.
This one is kinda blurry but it's the only pic I have of him coz he HATES to take pictures 😅😅.
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