After crying myself to sleep, I wake up feeling empty, lost and I am too tired to cry but the tears won't stop, making my pillow wet. I am human and I think it's okay to make mistakes but how easy is it to move past it? How easy is it to pick up the pieces and start over? When the ones that should cheer you on are the ones putting you down with words.
I have made terrible mistakes in my life which I'm not proud of, some of which I'm still regretting till date but all through it all I keep believing in myself and telling myself that I'm only human not a programmed machine.
I try to move past them but there is this feeling that reminds me like an alarm clock whenever I want to forge ahead. It sounds a reminder of my errors and shortcomings telling me I could make more mistakes and this always stand before me as a set back.
I know I'm made for more.
I'm more than what you see. But how do I prove myself to be more when I am not given the opportunity. I believe in me but still feels inadequate. What colour is my problem?
They say, speak up! Who do I want to really speak to? The one that will insult me with my challenges later, or the one that will help me broadcast it like a radio in no time. I really don't want to burden The one I believe will always have my back because they also have their own battles.
I will rise and fight for me! I know I can do it, if I believe. This is my battle and I will fight with all the strength I've got. I won't wait to be given the opportunity, I will take my chances. I can do this, I believe in me! It's a new day.
Picture used is mine
Yours truly @aunty-tosin 💕💕
Wes & Grindan