Most times I ask myself spending time alone away from noise, away from the busy traffic, away from home just you and your thoughts solely focused on you. You're not anyone's sister, not anyone's girlfriend, not anyone's sibling, just you and just being yourself.
When I was in secondary school, we usually had these theme reflections. On a Sunday we go about our daily routine without any single noise.
Imagine coming into a boarding school on a weekend that houses like a thousand students with no single sound, like a graveyard. A pin drop can be heard.
That training was something I didn't understand till I did it now. For me it was boring and all I did with the time was to read my books with no single reflection in my life but as I begin to grow I see the need to have those reflections.
Not being forced this time but willing to do it out of my own free will, and it's been amazingly super helpful.The world is already full of noise, and keeping a balance is quite difficult.
Let's go with the flow, the vibe, and you begin to lose yourself, and the once value you held close to your heart begins to fade.
You see yourself as super, and nothing else matters to you but this section that reminds you of who you are, where you come from, and your identity. Just shutting my eyes and remembering every single thing I could from the last 20 years of my life.
Slowly those memories surface, both sorrowful and happy, both mistakes made and full of regret. A moment I would accept my mistake, identify it, and never allow it to happen again.Accepting yourself is just the only way to move on.
People are the product of their past, but do we have to keep having that bitterness in our hearts and allow innocent people to suffer just because of a silly mistake of another? Grudges don't just go away because we just say, “I don't have any grudge against you,” but if you observe closely, we keep living by the product of our past and, in some extreme cases, plan a revenge scheme.
If someone has hurt us so badly, another innocent person suffers because of that.It's difficult to be a human in a world full of different species and the only way I get forward is by wrapping my legs around with my eyes shut and allowing the wind to take all the grudges away.
It's solely easy to forgive but not easy to forget all the stabs in our heart including the one that hurts the most. Just trying to move on with life in a chaotic environment full of noise.
Having a moment of reflection over my life, my past, and my future seems to be the only way to be calm and move on with no heavy garbage. Just having my daily Sunday reflection alone in the park, and it's like therapy hearing the birds whisper music to my ears and enjoying the view and watching the sun go down.
Image used above is mine
Wes & Grindan