This would be my first time writing and blogging about my life's journey. If your interested in hearing it, I'd be happy to share it with you.
I enjoy reading about mother's experiences, and I find it fascinating to learn more about other people's lives. I therefore enjoy sharing my journey with others.
So where to begin...
I was hospitalized frequently as a child, from elementary school through my sophomore year of high school, as a result of having inherited my father's asthma. I was born and raised in Dumaguete City. I was his favorite and I can see myself finding a man like him who will love me the way he does. He passed away when I was eight years old, and it was a very sad moment in my life when he left. I'm very proud of my mother for raising 5 children alone, I saw how tired she is but never heard her complain.
I became pregnant at the age of 20 just after finishing a two-year course. I was concerned about my ability to raise a child. I doubted my capability to be a decent mother. My world now revolves around the family I'm building after giving birth to my eldest son. This is a very difficult experience for me to go through because my family doesn't like my partner, but I fought for my love of him and lived with him. I never thought I would be pleased and happy living in a squatter community where I have to wash my clothes by hand, cook with wood and charcoal, and take a bath outside. The life there was very simple,I got the chance to see through people's eyes that no matter how hard life is there I could still see the smile of their faces of having the contentment in life. I raised my eldest on that area for 5 years.
Look how cute he is, so adorable ❤️.
FF -- I had my second child in the year 2014, Everything turned sideways with the family I treasured the most. This was the time that I had to go labor without my partner. I noticed some changes about his actions and had this gut feeling that he was cheating on me but I never confronted him about it. We decided that I should stay for a while at my mother's house so that someone could be able to help look after my child and he will just come visit me after he worked. I come to realized of confronting him about cheating on me since he did not come often at my mother's house, he have so many reasons explaining why he is not able fulfill his promise.
Thesame year, I found out that he was cheating on me. I could not believe my eyes, I thought that it only happens on movies where I witnessed the most horrifying scene of my life. I was on shocked and was not able to move my body while looking at my partner on top of a girl kissing. Even though I have seen that worse, I am still willing to forgive him. He chooses the girl over me and my children. He left me heart broken, I had a hard time moving on from that chapter of my life. Still I am grateful for everything because I have another angel who is very clingy and loving.
I admire and very thankful of my mother for staying by my side during the toughest battle of my life. I'm grateful despite of everything that happened in my past I am proud of having the chance to give, love and offer more for my children. Trust me I am very okay now and happy of being a mother of two. Being a mother is a very hard work, facing sleepless nights and helping out of daily chores. All the hardwork is worth it watching your children having fun and loves you back more than you do. I am blessed and happy watching them grow up.
And so I'm bringing positivity in my life, believing that Everything happens for a reason. A mother's role doesn't stop ,it is a life long and never ending learning, growing with your children. I'm open for learning more about motherhood since I am so far from perfect.
I really wandered when I went to college, but I wandered even more when I had depression after my partner and I broke up. Although that despair helped me move on and see more about the beauty of everything.
I needed a vacation from life and everything because it was difficult for me to pursue my true desires due to the responsibility I felt for raising my children. As the proverb goes, "If there is a will, there is a way." I had the time to do more exploring thanks to my mom and my sister. The journey has changed my outlook on life. I'm pushing my boundaries and picking up new talents for the future.
I find the consolation I need when I'm around nature; walking on grass, walking on sand, and going into the ocean all make me feel like I belong there. reassuring me and putting my mind and heart at ease. So whenever I can, I make time for me-time since I believe it much contributes to regaining the strength needed to face tomorrow.
So, through wandering—either by myself or with friends and family—I developed a love for the outdoors and a taste for good food. It also made me fall in love with photography—I'm not a pro, but I'd really like to improve it.
That is my life highlights and I'd be delighted to discuss some of my adventures with you. See yahh!
