So far 2022 has lived up to my expectation that it sets me on a course for re-birth of my Self.
When I quit my job at the beginning of the year in order to some how make a go at working from home. The ultimate goal being 'a long break from society'. Anyone working in retail knows what I mean when I say it's exhausting. Those of you putting up with retail during the pandemic know it even better.
My whole body and spirit became so beaten by the energies of all these people and all their troubles. Did everyone come at me and tell me their worries and woes? No. Did they NEED to in order for me to feel that energy? Oh heavens no!
I needed to get out of that energy stew! I needed to find myself again. So I left my job. With no real plan except to not be in that forced environment of a crowd.
And now coming up on my 3rd month of unemployment and attempting to turn that into self employment, I am finally learning who I am. Where I am headed.
My days are filled with learning. Re-learning. Re-connecting with my husband, after a very strained 2 years of my resentment of him losing his job but still getting paid, while I struggled to deal with all the crazy energy of the world.
I have found a place that makes me feel safe, finally.
I have remembered who I am and where I'm going.
In these 2-ish months so far I have re-introduced myself to all the things that make me happy. The things that I've been putting aside because I just didn't have the energy to 'deal' with the emotions they brought about.
I'm coming out from under the blankets of negativity that have cloaked me over the past couple of years. It IS possible to come back from these negative experiences we have. All is not lost. We will get where we're going, once we realize where that is.
