You see, 2024 was an angry year. I was angry everyday, all day and guess who paid for it? If your answer is me, as in Deraa, then you are correct! The only person my anger hurt was me. The worst part was trying to convince myself that it was okay and that nothing was wrong. Alas, as the year ended, I was shown mercy.
I saw an illustration of what healing looks like last month. A glass of wine placed under running water and over time, that wine became clear water. I have always had it at the back of my head that I needed to heal. I have been the hardest on myself with the criticism, the loathing and the lack of esteem. As such, I tend to treat others the same way without even realising it. But thank God for mercy.
I entered this year with the longing to move forward, to stop being angry. I needed the manual though and that was when I found “You Can Heal Your Life” by Louise L. Hay. A very old book (1984).
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As someone who loves covers, I tried getting it but unfortunately, it’s expensive online (I was low on cash) and it was no where in any book store. A friend even tried to look for it around her vicinity in Ghana but same result.
Anyway, I had to settle for the E-book and the way it began brought tears to my eyes (I kid you not)….
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It was like my entire being was open and I was just super sensitive. I could easily say it was ovulation but I know it wasn’t. I was just genuinely happy to finally read something as beautiful as this.
Currently in chapter eleven and Louise has thought me the vital importance of self acceptance and approval. I have been made to see why I need to love myself all over again and accept my past mistakes for what they are - past mistakes. Unlike the books I read, this one is slow and sometimes painfully hard to put to practice, but I do it anyway.
Today, chapter ten, Louise ended it with a paragraph that just stayed with me the entire day. My heart felt full all the way and I found myself in that place where I was just having fun.
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Trust me, waking up and telling myself to live for that day is easier said than done. Yet, I promised myself to live with intentionality this year and so, with each passing moment, I chant the words, “I approve of myself. I accept myself”.
So much so that I no longer have rushed mornings. I saw this meme that said, “I don’t do laps around the universe. “MY” universe revolves around me”. Louise said the same thing in this book and why I don’t rush anymore.
I wake up, spend quality time communicating with my Maker, then with myself through reading and Yoga. I drink a lot of water, properly have a shower and leave my house on time for work. Honestly, I don’t know how it’s happening but it’s just happening.
Louise said not to think about it and just think about what I want. So that’s what I am doing.
In conclusion, this book has been enlightenment and escape. It’s very laid back and almost like you’re conversing with someone. The affirmations are beautiful too. I can’t get enough of them.
