Sometimes life is not fair, especially when you try so hard but yield little or nothing. There was a period in my life when I was living for nothing. I just wanted to live life as it came. But I soon became bored and decided it was time to live for something. I knew then that there was more to life than what I had come to know, so I was desperate to find things I did not know. This was in 2015, and it wasn't long I found faith in Christianity. I had followed my new found faith for years until a time came in my life that I felt something was missing. I didn't know what it was, but I was desperate to find it.
Soon It was as though I was chasing the wind after I found what I thought was my reason for living in love and it blew up in my face. It was at that moment I sat down to analyze my life, actions and decisions and saw that I was chasing shadows and fallacies all along. I didn't know much, I only knew what I was taught, which was supposed to be a foundation for me to build. But instead I made the things I had been taught about life, about faith and about love my entire reason for living. It was a rather painful discovery which first looked as though I had wasted a good amount of my time on earth. But soon enough I realized that those a
Years were never wasted at all.
It's one thing to dream of becoming something meaningful in life, it's another thing to have a reason for living. I used to think that since I had big dreams and plans I had a reason to live, but later I discovered that dreams are like wishes, but the reason why we would choose to continue living is not a fantasy. When I found my reason for living it was then I understood who I was at that moment and who I aspired to be. Before it was people telling me I looked like (this) so I should become (that). And I had been thought when I behaved in certain ways, it meant I am or supposed to be someone (the claimed).
Living a meaningful life for me is knowing yourself, and putting yourself in a state of peace all the time. This sounds easy, but it's more difficult than it looks. Peace I've come to know it's not just the absence of worries, but the motivation that comes in troubled times. What wakes me up from bed, what keeps me going when I feel like giving up. It's not just about what people say or didn't say, it's about what brings me peace. Peace for someone might be seeing their family together and happy always, and for another it could be seeing that they would never have to lack ever again. For me, peace is seeing that I will one day be able to make an impact in my country that would change a lot of things… And the road to that peace can be long, but that is the meaning of life.
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