I never really experienced hunting for a job, but I was able to experience applying for a job where I am already sure to get that job. I actually had a backer ( ꈍᴗꈍ), they're recommending me for the job, and they even taught me what to answer, it's for when I'm already having a face to face interview with the interviewer, they spoon fed me everything. I thought everything would be easy from then on, but for someone who's shy, can't speak loudly, and is stup*d when it comes to direction, I had to ask for lots of help from my sister and even from the one who recommended me for that job,
I got all the help that I needed from all of them, including my NBI clearance, barangay clearance, and medical certificate. I also have to take care of my uniform, and from the skirt, the top, and even the underwear, that's a lot of expenses and the money I'm holding was not enough. Job hunting is the hardest, but that's just the first step, you'll have to finish another quest before you can successfully work. But thanks God, we're able to finish gathering all the requirements needed. That's also thanks to those people who helped me.
I am so grateful, and I really, really want to work things out once I start working as promodiser, you know, as a way to repay those who helped me and for them to think that they didn't choose the wrong person for that job. I am determined to work things out, really, but, unfortunately, I didn't attend work on my second day. I thought hard before I decided to stop. I weighed everything, not just the expenses I spent using Mom and Ate Riza's money but also their help. But this work is really not just for me. I know I should've tried more.
I really feel bad, and I am so ashamed of what I did. Imagine not attending on just the second day, huh? I know, I'm really stupid. But I don't like that work, even if it's just for experience, I don't like it. Aside from the cold inside the Robinson department store, I am also overwhelmed by what I had to do to get to work. And even though the Robinson is just walking distance from our apartment, I hate the overpass! I have to climb up, then go to work with sweat all over me. I just hate it all! It's energy consuming!
I also hate that I have to login with my name every time we have to enter. Then the lady guard will check our bodies for whatever reason whenever we have to go outside or even just for a break. Like why? Who's crazily hide products inside our bodies? I mean, I think no one will even think about that. They don't have trust in their employees! I hate that too. I can't even bring my own tissue, I can bring a handkerchief, but that too needs embroidery of Robinson's logo. Like, WTF? I really hate their ways.
And this is the reason why I don't want to look for a job now —I mean, one of the reasons. I'd rather work from home, even though the pay is not regular. I'd rather do freelancing than get tired just going into my workplace. At least I won't sweat, and I won't get tired. Although the pay is not regular compared to a regular job, it is still so much better. And by handling your money wisely, I think you can still live comfortably with it. Although there's a part of me that still likes to try working outside, right now, I am still enjoying what I'm currently doing.
And you know, with the bills left and right, it's impossible to save no matter what, especially in the Philippines. The minimum wage is too small, everything is already increasing in price, but why is the salary still the same? And Mom knows that is also one of the reasons why I don't want to work in City Hall, as she once encouraged me. I told her that I'd be just their errand girl there if ever, and then what? I'd get the same amount of salary, no increase or whatever, so nevermind! Mom is so understanding, that's why I'm thankful.
Working from home also has its downsides, but for me, just based on that one experience, as long as I am enjoying it, then G! I know that other people who hunt jobs have the worst experience during their time applying than mine. I know I am just too choosy, too arrogant, too weak, and really stupid, but seriously, it's my worst experience too. Some people can adjust and do it, but I can't. So I'd go where I'm safe and comfortable. And I'll say, work from home is really for me, better for the introvert me, who hate crowds and facing people.
How about you? Freelancing and work at home or a job outside with a monthly salary?
