Staying away from the learning or educational system for over 3 years was not something that helped me at all (at least this was my thoughts) but it happened anyways. My life felt like it was on a standstill but then deep down I knew I’ve made a lot of progress in other aspects of my life. My family were supportive and encouraging as well, so I just kept holding on to the Hope I have in God that some day I’d be in the four walls of a learning institution.
Guess what? It just the next year which is this year (2024) when I was already at the brink of giving up (I wasn’t planning to, lol, I was actually preparing for even more stamina to keep pushing, hehe) And it happened in a way that was so unexpected but the process was what gave me the results I needed. I wasn’t getting any younger I’d usually say to myself and that made me compared myself to a lot of friends and people I knew I would have passed in terms of academic but then God had better plans for me and now I’m just grateful for where I am.
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Indeed everything happens for a reason, yes it may be unpleasant and unfair at first but it’s just a matter of time before you’d see the hand work of God in it.
I finally became a student of a prestigious university here in my country and I was faced with a new challenge and problems to find solutions to. It was really overwhelming at first, there where days when I will just go back to my hostel and cry my eyes out and that helped me feel better most of the time until I started sharing my pains and problems with some friends, everything started getting a lot bearable. At this new stage of my life, God used it to draw me closer to himself because in the end he was the only one I could really tell all that aches my heart.
I kept pressing, I kept pushing and I kept moving pass every stage that at first seemed like would like it would consume me. The most beautiful part was that, at every stage, God brought an amazing person to my life to help me scale through that difficult moment, Some I knew and others I didn’t, also some stayed while some left. And finally, I was able to conclude my first examination for the first semester just yesterday and now I think it is necessary that I look back and reflect on all the beautiful things that have happened to me.
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This change was so hard for me to adjust to at first but now I’m feeling so proud of myself for not giving up. I don’t know what the next semester holds for me but I’m confident because I know I have a friend and a father who will always care for me and he always wants the best for me. It’s definitely not going to be easy but in the journey of embracing change, it has never been easy because it is something good for most of it and nothing good as they say comes easy.
I’m feeling reassured and motivated to give myself to this change I see coming especially if that is the will of God for me. My best is not always good enough but I’d keep giving my best and keep hoping it will be good enough someday. I’d encourage you if you get to read to this point to be intentional about the changes that might be happening in your life. It’s never going to look fair on you but just trust the process and you’d be happy you did.
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