Hello, my beloved friends. I want to reassure you about the latest news so that you don't worry about me. I'm fine. Actually, I'm lucky so far. Because it's a lottery.
I feel like deja vu.
It's like February or March again. Shelling, long air raids. But the most important thing is the real threat of being without electricity, water, gas, heating, and the Internet. There is a real threat of losing a home, or even a life.
But this is not March. I've stayed this long, and I'm not ready to die now. Then, it was one continuous terrible and long day, the events of which were not easy to restore in memory.
Now I have learned to live my days, my life. I don't want to go back, otherwise, it was all in vain.
I got used to the air raid sirens, but I am already weaned from waking up to the sound of explosions. It is unpleasant. After that, it's not so easy to force yourself to work, to save a poker face and pretend in general that everything is normal and life goes on. Even if it seems so from aside.
In the first days, I woke up, and there were one or two seconds when I did not remember the war. For just a second or two, my world was as usual. Next, I became aware of the recent reality, and because of this, something black and painful squeezed in my chest.
I didn't like waking up. But then I got used. That's disgusting.
In the office.
Today is a very warm and sunny day. I did not want to work from home and went to the office.
Deja vu. It's windy, the sky is clear and bright blue, and invisible smell of smoke is in the air. This means that somewhere nearby, someone is fighting a fire, someone is waiting with a frozen heart for an answer on the phone, and someone remained alive but lost everything he had. Bloody war.
Today, I'm not alone here. There is one new face - a pregnant young woman at the reception. It reminded me of the couple who died yesterday in their home after shelling by a drone, the young woman was expecting a baby...
I spent much time on the phone calling the clinic to make an appointment with a doctor, but I was never able to. And then I remembered that the district was shelled today in the morning, and they have no electricity and water. Too bad. I don't know what to do and don't want to do to another doctor. Let's see tomorrow.
After middle, I met 2 colleagues that I didn't see for ages! One of them returned from Germany, just for a week or so, and then he goes back.
The other one told me a horrible story - our workmate, a guy from his team lives in that beautiful old apartment building that was half-destroyed yesterday in Kyiv downtown! OMG! He and his wife were at home at the moment, and their flat is located at the back of the building, courtyard view. It miraculously survived! They definitely had a second birthday yesterday... Oh my God...
We discussed the situation. If it gets worse, we should find a place with electricity and Internet to continue working. And to be safe as well. That's so sad, after many months of living at home, to find a place to move, a real plan B. In the worst case, it will be outside of Ukraine. Hello refugee!
The good news is that these cowardly shellings is a response of a losing country to its looses on the battlefield. This means that the Ukrainian army has success, it is slowly advancing and taking back our territories.
We were warned by our CEO that the better things are for the military, the worse things will be for the civilians, and we have to be prepared for that.
Remember how you tried to calm me in February? You said this nightmare would end soon. And I told myself the same. I don't know when this war will end but the good news is that in fact, this is the last autumn of Putin. I don't believe he will make it to next fall.
I quickly got used again to keeping my phone and power bank charged to maximum, having a supply of drinking and technical water, candles, batteries, flashlights and warm things at home. Do not turn on appliances during peak hours and save literally everything.
Ukrainians are very stubborn. We are brave, intelligent and freedom-loving. Maybe too kind, trusting and tolerant. And also masters of survival. Only thanks to this we were able to survive and preserve our identity during many occupations.
I'm thinking about these Iran drones. Iran pretends not to be involved in the war, but there is evidence and intelligence that they are not only supplying weapons, but also training instructors.
Actually, this practice of terrorist attacks with the aim of causing a humanitarian crisis is dangerous. It can become contagious for other terrorist states if it does not receive a decent rebuff.
Even now, a drone may accidentally fly over all Ukraine and fall somewhere in the EU/NATO.
Or an explosion can damage the Ukrainian gas transportation system. In addition to the mysterious simultaneous damages on the North Stream. Terrorists go all the way as long as we let them.
We do want to end the war. What it means?
Let's be honest, there are only two options for Ukraine - either Ukraine will win, or Ukraine will cease to exist.
I believe this fall will be the last. For Putin. Not for Ukraine.
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My words of gratitude for your care and help, and emotional support. For sharing my joys and sorrows. For not being tired and standing with Ukraine, and supporting Ukrainian community on Hive.
You are the best. It's like a second family.
I am lucky to be here, and honored.
Thank you 😘
