"Man is born free, responsible and without excuses."
Jean Pal Sartre.
Today has not been a very productive morning, I was able to finish doing some things at work and decided to leave before noon because the truth is that I couldn't even hold my head.
Most of the time when I fall into a crisis I think about negative things, it could be normal, right?
And all those inquisitive questions and reasoning begin:
If it is something bad, how are you going to face it?
Could it be the pancreas,or the liver?
I didn't remember this symptom, is it something new now?
Calm down, it will pass.
Don't go out like that, it can give you a vagal crisis.
Nothing happens, everything is fine, after two days eating porridge the inflammation will go down and you will smile again.
Stop the fucking drama.
"Ultrasound of my pain"
For many years I did stupid things with my stomach, I did not take care of it as I should and it took its toll in such a way that I am still regretting it, at this point, anything drinkable or edible must go through a highly verifiable selection filter so that alterations do not occur in my digestive mucous membranes, which hurt a lot.
Yes, the slightest thing I eat has to be evaluated, and that bothers me.
Maybe I didn't pay much attention because the arguments were not very convincing or strong, and taste always prevailed over reason, and although I was not a spoiled girl who always acted under her immature and foolish reasons, I think, after a long time I found the origin of my former unwillingness to control my bad eating habits.
I was born in a very humble home, and although we had no problems with basic foods, sweets and delicious things were rationed a lot, because more than one family lived in the same home and we had to share and divide so that there was enough for everyone.
So I don't remember having digestive problems as a child until my parents and I moved to our own apartment. There began the second part of my life and the beginning of the problems.
Obviously everything delicious prioritized my tastes, and my parents with the best of their will wanted to give their daughter everything that until then was regulated by a shared pantry, but access to a greater quantity was a time bomb.
Young people and children inherit and develop their own tastes, but parents must stubbornly manage what they choose and consume, plus what can affect their blood sugar, their growth and their health in general.
"Cause - effect"
Talking to a co-worker, she tells me that her daughter has had a serious thyroid problem since she was born, and that for this reason she has had to strictly watch all of her food, designing her meals by exact amounts, including her snacks, because otherwise she will become in an obese person with serious endocrine problems.
I am a particular witness to this and up to her current age, fourteen years old, the success of her nutritional treatment has been so rigorous that the young woman maintains a perfect mental and physical development that could have been affected if it were not well controlled and regulated.
Then the maxim is fulfilled that if a person has the conscious will to face a problem in a reflective way, it will positively influence his or her lifestyle.
It is a matter of life and death to be responsible for our habits and decisions.
Unfortunately, I also have witnessed deaths caused by the very owners of their bodies.
I have seen how a person gradually justifies their evils through "their needs", which shows that they do not have or want to change their will or their conscience about the situation,and destiny of his life.
The first thing that a person who wants to change a bad habit that is harming his life must assume is to be honest with himself and recognize that he has a problem that is salvageable and that it will be like this ONLY IF HE HIMSELF IS ABLE TO DO IT.
All change depends on oneself.
As children we are unconscious beings, and it is normal not to understand what the world, life, is about, so the regulatory and guiding role is played firstly by the family and secondly by the society where we live through a healthy, clean and transparent education.
Do you know the price of marketing campaigns that promote sweets and chocolates?
The world itself is a market that moves, transforms and romanticizes all the fat and sugar that caramelize your arteries so irreversibly that one day you will wake up with the firm desire to start a new healing exercise routine, and it will be so late that you will only end up with a myocardial infarction.
There is always tomorrow
The choice is definitely ours, and for that we can make use of our beautiful freedom by being able to choose between filling our bodies with extraordinarily healthy energy cycles or simply letting them wither from the excesses of our selfishness.
I chose to live
Always very grateful for your reading.
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