Last Friday, I attended my first joint ritual with other practitioners in a long time. I reconnected with cannabis once more after almost eight months, it was beautiful. The group worked the energy of money and abundance with a powerful exchange of energy and, even though I realized they're even more distracted and unaligned than they used to be when I left, I also noted how little that matters to me now. By the end, they all wanted me to pull my Runes, so I did and it was truly wonderful. The messages were strong, one of them so much so that, for the first time, I hesitated to give one piece of detail, but I did anyway. They were all grateful and a possibility appeared for me to start teaching Runes in that space, which I'm more than ready to try.
The next day I helped a friend repaint some areas of his apartment so he could rent it out. We were almost finished when he approached me and gave me a tiny bag with a little cannabis in it. It was dry, probably had spent months inside the drawer where he found it, but it felt totally like a gift. I was so excited and grateful for it. Then I went to the gaming event I've been attending for the past couple of months, but there was hardly any gaming, the place was packed and there was a really noisy stage, so I left pretty fast. I returned home to prepare for my own meditation using the plant, but first I wanted to know if people from the gaming groups would like to go to the mall where those events are held, taking advantage of the fact that there'd be no event this Sunday. That's when I committed a small faux pas and asked a guy to lend me his already-printed character sheets for a quick roleplaying session. That didn't sit well with him, obviously, but I was oblivious to it at the time. Minutes later, however, when I began my meditation with the aid of the plant, I saw many things and this episode resurfaced strongly, making me reflect on my words.
I spent Sunday also reflecting and meditating, and this small detail kept nagging me, so right when I began the reading you see below, I wrote to the guy and apologized for the suggestion I made. He claimed to had had forgotten it completely, but I doubt that was true. I've already seen how passionately he clings to certain emotions and experiences, and I didn't want our interaction to struggle later on. Best to acknowledge any issues and move on. The apology was accepted and that was the end of it. Then I continued with the reading and it totally connected with what I'd just done.
We're all fallible. At any moment we could be trespassing on someone's boundaries or breaking rules of etiquette, even grossly abusing someone's trust without realizing it. It doesn't matter how generally good we might be, or how much we tell ourselves that we're righteous and honest, we're all likely to stumble and fall once in a while, sometimes pretty disastrously, because we're not entirely conscious of our actions. The mistakes may be small, like the one I just told you about, but they can build up into something far more serious if we don't wise up and start checking up on ourselves. One might say "Oh this is probably nothing, no big deal," and perhaps one might be right, but we don't know how other people think and feel, what their values are, what matters to them. I know roleplaying is pretty important to this guy, so I had to correct my misstep, not just because of him, but because of my image in the community as a whole.
On the other hand, mistakes aren't what we think they are. We don't like to be wrong, to be the ones having to apologize, to be responsible for trouble, but sadly, it's precisely this refusal to take responsibility that creates crises on the long term, when enough "small" issues are left unacknowledged and therefore unrepaired, until they compound into big problems. Realizing a mistake on time and quickly fixing it prevents any accumulations and ends up strengthening connections. It's also relevant to keep in mind that nothing in this Universe happens without a reason, even if we don't understand the schemes behind it; in that sense, mistakes are also meant to happen, they're within the Law, inexorable, because only by committing them and taking the hit of the consequences can we grow aware of them, learn and evolve.
There are no small details, everything counts toward the whole!
Rune of the Day: Tiwaz
What is correct and is within the Law is always fulfilled, sooner or later; this is a moment when scores are settled, the pieces are put in their respective places and dysfunctions requiring adjustments are revealed. You receive what you give and that which you receive comes in greater abundance. A respectful attitude makes you respectable, similarly indifference makes you prone to insults; everything is reflect and amplified, so be careful, review the image that you are projecting, observe the protocols of the places where you access, you may be unknowingly committing offenses of varying severity. Balance your vision, the only stability possible resides in always adapting one's feet to the irregularities of the path. Look back, see what you have accomplished. What makes you doubt that you can reach higher and farther?