Heart Wound

jin-out 2 days ago

Hey @valued-customer sorry for being MIA for a couple days. Stepping into a new context for my life and just revelling in the transformative experience.

Now i understand completely the wisdom behind "forgive yourself first". I cannot believe i had been carrying this BULLSHIT trauma in my life all this time. The Buddha was right that we hold the keys to all the doors; we bind ourselves, we liberate ourselves. By owning up to the trauma and giving it the existence it craves, it can be identified and then you can kick it hard in the nuts.

These past couple days has been the most free and liberating i've felt in a long while. The pain still there, but it's a phantom pain. Setting a new context for my life was very much needed.

I know i can always count on you to give wise counsel.

I have purposed to remain free by having only the good I do. What I am cannot be taken from me. What I give freely needs no defense and cannot be betrayed because there are no defenses to be within.

Thank you for this reminder. I understand why you live and act on goodwill now. It's a duty to oneself to live this way, because compassion is the answer and always will be. I may not be able to fully be comfortably kind or loving to those who did me in, i'm still human after all, but at least i can eliminate the negativity and even destroy it by focusing on compassionate energy applied in action.

Toby (the childhood years), The Vagabond Showman (my pre-20 years), Jin The Sojourner (my entire 20s), The Quiet Knife (my mid 20s right up until my early 30s) and now Brave-Smoke (sounds like a Chieftan's name lol)....i see the entire journey and where it has taken me. These are all chapters of my life and they reveal to me the force that has pushed me forward all these years....the innate quest to clear all that is in my life away from any obfuscation...the truth of life.

I will upload another video reporting on this transformative experience and where my life-context is now in a couple of days. But just to say my life, my spirit, my intention and vision and my duties in life as a performer, a sojourner, a freedom fighter and a man upon this Earth have become clear to me. Everything in my life is streamlined right now.

My daily building blocks ("Fist of the Singing Spring" (Wing Chun), Buddhism, Pipe Smoking, Extricating the System endeavours and Prestidigitation) have come into full effect and for the first time in life, i feel like i can accept myself.

Thank you once again VC. One day, i will shake your hand and say, lets smoke a spear of death together until we hear Chinese people singing in the background!

PS - i know you said no before, but please reconsider joining me on element.io

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fonestreet 5 days ago

CHEERS BRO.

!DOOK

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jin-out 5 days ago

No brotha, cheers to YOU!

!DOOK

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fonestreet 5 days ago

😁⚡⚡☑️

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daretodefy 3 days ago

Quite the journey of pain, growth, perseverance, transcendence and triumph. Keep doing brilliant work that you are destined to deliver brother, there will never be a Jin/Toby/Brave-Smoke on Earth before or after you. Cheers for sharing with us the story of your life and thanks for not being 'normal' and instead being extra-ordinary. It's a challenging task to look back and see the trails in the desert from the coffins of trauma dragged, to sit with, sort and cut away what no longer serves you. But YOU must do this or you can never rise into your complete and whole self and walk your journey free to your destiny.