I was crying the whole night and day from Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. I felt being stabbed. There are so many reason why that I couldn't tell anyone about it. It's my own feeling that I kept for how many years. I couldn't accept judgment if I tell this so I just kept it between my heart and mind and to the one concerned. Otherwise, I was also devastated about certain things from family misunderstanding. Those were reason dragging me to the blue. It darkened my emotion. All of those things are private and I don't want to discuss it in public to respect myself. Everything happened for a reason and learned lesson from it though my heart still giving consideration and keep the best for me that could make me happy. God is the center why I do this. God gave it to me and I am hoping for His miracle and guidance.
While doing my job, tears were falling, I lost control from the time I got up from my bed sleepless. I forced myself to calm down but the pain never stop. God is good. He surprised me using someone dear to me that made me smile.
She came to the kitchen requesting me to cook noodles for her breakfast but she saw me in tears. My face turned color red and she asked me whats wrong with me. I couldn't speak. She left and returned with flowers to make me smile.
She hugged me and squeezed my face with her tender hands. I felt her affection and comfort. I love her like me daughter, since I only have only one son for real.
I kept the flowers for preservation until one week, it will be still looking fresh using sugar mixed in the glass of water.
I felt better keep the most when someone called me and we talked a lot of things. Then the strong sandstorm attacked once again that made me busy. It added burden to this week busy days but I am grateful that I am feeling better today than the previous days.
I swept the dust on the floor and I created a face of a man. I wrote what I am feeling and I love writing this words everytime I got a chance to express my feelings.
That's all for today and thank you for your support #hiveph, @asean.hive admin and community members.
