Hello hive community, it has been a while I dropped a post here and I probably thought it was because I had nothing special to write about. Besides I thought my life was a regular routine, nothing outstanding to document or even think of sharing with another person.
I have read through several people’s post, tried to get involved in other exercise but I somehow lost the interest and vibe. Then, something spectacular and exciting happened to me few days ago and the first thought I had was to use a pen and paper and document it just to feel it a bit off my mind and lighter. Throughout my teenage, i have always felt comfortable keeping diaries and memories and meeting up with hive, has given me the opportunity to keep an open diary and it is so much fun.
My previous post here i shared a beautiful memory of my wedding day. I got married last year and a young lady starting her own family at the age of 21 was something I still get questioned for.
Before I got married, my husband and I decided to stay for two years before bringing in kids with the plan of being more comfortable to raise kids without struggle.
I wasn’t bothered about getting pregnant even when people will sarcastically tell me that they’re waiting for my baby’s dedication. I’d jokingly respond that I still want to journey through life just me and my husband for a very long time before thinking of bringing kids besides I enjoy fitting into dresses with a flat tummy.
Living with my parents, i was always self conscious of my diet, workout plan and certain activities just to maintain the skinny look and fit into hugging dresses. Although i was clearly skinny and down to earth i still skipped meals to look completely flat in the tummy. I would rather go hungry than eat and it probably pops up a bit in a dress. You can totally say i was obsessed with my looks especially the tummy. so getting pregnant with the thought of a growing tummy wasn't in the picture.
After I got married, I no longer cared about looking flat on a dress as long as I looked healthy or something close to pregnancy
At that point I realized I will tilting my mind towards the direction of people’s thought and sometimes when I bump into hubby holding another woman’s baby it is always so beautiful. With a comfy body that he has, babies dose off on his body immediately and i can’t help but give a warm smile and imagine how loving a father he will be.
I started thinking about getting pregnant. Subsequent times i felt i was pregnant, i ran through several test and they all came out negative. it was really a struggle to get past those moments.
I could recall a month i was three days past my period i was almost convinced i was pregnant, only to be welcomed by an annoying period and honestly it was disappointing. I began contemplating why should a 22 year old be waiting so long to get pregnant. To a point I thought I had some health issue I wasn’t aware of… I could remember a day I went to consult a doctor to find out if I had some kind of issues regarding fertility… I never discussed it with hubby because I didn’t want him thinking unnecessary stuffs. Hence, I decided to do it on my own, amazingly the place I had in mind to visit for the consultation seemed to have been locked and I couldn’t go ahead with it. I decided to rest and expect my annoying period as usual. That was within the first week of June.
Towards the month end as usual I was expecting my period to come along while i continue to feel disappointment and anger. I noticed my PMS (Premenstrual syndrome) persisted longer than it should have. I intentionally ignored it. After all, there were times I was 100% sure I was pregnant only to be disappointed by my period. So I decided to get over it.
I checked my calendar and I noticed I was a day late on period I still wasn’t concerned.
Although during this period, I spent most of my times on social media platforms about pregnancy and soon to be moms… I don’t know if I have other people here who indulge in that.
Anyways I never bothered I just assumed it was just a delay due to stress., when I was 4 days late I still doubted it. I just assumed the stress I encountered had caused a delay in the period. I got tired of waiting..
I thought to myself, instead of getting upset by my period, Let me run a pregnancy test and see negative so I don’t get depressed and angry. my mind was already set on seeing a negative result...
Once I did the test, it came out positive. I couldn’t hold the joy… i reached out for my phone and told my husband over whatsApp.😂
I had an ideal way I wanted to announce my pregnancy to hubby but i realized the particular joy of pregnancy cannot be measured or contained. So in no particular format, i broke the news of my pregnancy over a chat.
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At this point I’d go back to why I said
"I probably thought it was because I had nothing special to write about. Besides I thought my life was a regular routine. Nothing outstanding to document or even think of sharing with another person. I have read through several people’s post, tried to get involved in other exercised but I somehow lost the interest and vibe but something spectacular and exciting happened to me few days ago"
Finding out about this great news it has given me a great cause to go back into writing. I’ll be documenting every moment of this journey
… next series will be dropped soon.