Growing up was really challenging for me. Being the first and only child of my mother after I lost my younger brother in 2004, I was doted on; showered with so much love and care, I became attention-addicted. Unfortunately, I had my own share of ups and down as things took a different steer in 2006 when my parents got separated. I lost the taste of childhood. Or should I say it was boring and annoying. Notwithstanding, I was still the attention-ever-seeking guy and whenever I meet someone who loves attention like I do, we become best of friends knowing that we're there for each other all the time. My perfect duo! 😜
One of the ways to win my heart is to give me your attention. I love to glory in it - quality time - as it tops my list of love languages. This has really defined my relationship and social life as a whole. The level of our friendship is directly proportional to the level of attention I get from you. Mind you, I'm such a lover-boy who enjoys putting smiles on the faces of those around me. I don't know how to gossip but I'm very good at keeping people's secrets. I can go all out for the ones I love. This charisma alongside my generosity has helped me gain a lot of friends but in spite of my simplicity, I won't watch you jeopardize my image or try to play smart on my intelligence. "Don't use my name to lie or gain favour" has literally been my first commandment to those around me. I dread betrayal like a plague.
Amidst all these, there's a part in me I'm really fighting hard - that's consistency. It has always been a hard nut for me to crack. Sometimes, I will start a thing and along the line I will suddenly lose interest and won't keep up with it again. However, whenever I'm determined to do something, I go all out for it at all costs even if it might be risky at that particular time.
Crazy, huh?! That's how I'm wired.
Unlike how people who love attention make me feel comfortable and lovey-dovey, people who also lack consistency hardly last in friendship with me. They make me feel so lazy and relaxed because they leave me with the notion that I'm not alone in this. Of course, that shouldn't be the mentality of someone that seeks growth and personal development. So, nursing the problem is not the best option but rather looking for a solution is the way out. So I and my partner have resolved to be each other's accountability partner. We've got each other's back!
If you're in this same shoe, I will advise you to get yourself an accountability partner and a diary for writing down your daily progress.
Thank you for reading my post. Till I come your way some other time.
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