I would be sharing here something personal about my struggles with drugs but here I am.My worst experience with drugs began when I was at my most vulnerable moment,when i was fighting for my life undergoing series of operations.
The pain was unbearable,my doctors prescribed various medications to manage it.Little did I know those very drugs would become my worst nightmares..I couldnt recall the names of those drugs,but two stood out,this first one is usually been given to me after an operation or when I complain of pain,so it was meant to alleviate my pains,it would definitely reduce the pain but at the same time it would trigger non stop vomiting and coughing,as i vomit and cough,the pain in my operation area wou0ld increase,as it takes every intestine in me to cough,this do leave mee feeling helpless.
They noticed this also and recommended another medication,this particualr one would definitely ease the pain too,I do sleep,thats the best,but if am not able to sleep it would take me on the journey of hallucinatings.
I would start seeing,hearing,saying things that weren't there,happening, I would be hearing voices, and responding to nobody in particular and seeing distorted visions.I will just speak nonsensically not knowing the words escaping mouth.I got tired and everyone staying with me got scared.
They are off and dark days,filled with pains.I felt trapped in it for long,even when I stopped the medication after communicating to my doctors,I still halkucinate, unable to distinguish reality from the world created by the drugs.
I got weak,and begin to lose myself.
But something within me refused to surrender.I won't give up,this not the end for me,I do reassure myself,I believe we are what we say,its good to declare good and positive thins over oneself.Together with my family members and my doctors,we looked for way around it.
Slowly I begsn to push through the tough times,we adjusted my treatment plan,and also introduce alternate ways to manage my pain.
The road to recovery was not smooth,but I persevered,what helped me mostly was the love and support from family members and loved ones and the medical team,it went a long way in my healing process.
Then,it got to a stage that I could not recognize anyone, anymore,I cant recognize you by face,the only valid means is for you to where a cloth I know you with, when I see a kind of cloth I know its this person that do wear this particular cloth,so even if someone else were to wear the same cloth I wouldn't know.
Today I am very grateful for that journey.It helped reshaped my perspective on life,health,and a whole lot of things,I have learned to appreciate the simple things in life,it taught me love,compassion and lots.....
Drugs even when taken under medical supervision,there's need for vigilance and the need to take note of any changes in self
If you're facing similar struggles,know that you're not alone,seek help,ask questions, and don't be afraid to challengeit.Your well-being is worth fighting for.
As I think on that difficult period.Human can overcome even the darkest moments if we are willing.I thank GOD for staying by me during this period,a big thanks to my family for standing through,to my doctors who listened to me and noticed also,thanks, and to my own self,thanks for not losing it,for not giving up....
I hope that my experience can caution and inspire others to seek help.Communicate to people that can help,trusy God,seek medical advice's,surround self with good and loving people,and be strong for yourself,reassuring self and remain positive,you will definitely get through it.
I did
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