Do people still say they dislike things with passion? Dislike is a big word already and I think that the inclusion of passion makes it a little ....too much.
I certainly have things that I do not like a whole lot. Things that make me uncomfortable. If I am any correct, time and time, and in my older posts, I have highlighted a few. Expectantly, they should be the regular things that everyone else would frown at. And no doubt, there are some like that. But here, these are more the quick ones anyone around me would easily identify.
One is crowded areas, noise I grew up keeping to myself. Usually, I would sneak into the room and just lay on the bed facing the wall while the rest of the family was in the living room chatting or seeing a programme on TV. Or, I'd go out in the compound, to a poorly lit corner and just sit listening to my cool music list. It was a habit that helped me get by - very helpful. Overtime, I got so used to the calm that all it took to have my heartbeat and nerves going berserk was a little noise. It was crazy that I could watch something on TV with the volume at five and hear It so loudly and clearly. Because of disliked noise, I disliked the crowd. I just always want to be in a dangerously quiet place. I get so much anxiety from being around people, acquaintances or not. It just sets me off.
I can't even remember a time from when i appreciated having to be around people and that is the reason I also have an aversion for going out. It has always been my way since long long ago to just get away from gatherings. It's just not one of the scenes that leave my composure on a hundred.
Sane with lights. My sibling calls me an agent of darkness and it's hilarious but it tells what you should know. Don't get me wrong, I am appreciative of innovation and electricity. After all, I need it, to run my devices. Lights, from electricity and natural loght(that filters in when i am indoors) just unsettle me. They're bad fir my eyes as well, and somehow, I've adjusted to seeing very clear in dark places. This is far beyond what i can explaon, but, lights influence my thinking and meditation. Somehow, they make this so much noise that disrupts my thoughts(sincerely, I hope that one person gets this.)
Then, there is ncleanness. I cannot stand it at all. I am very deliberate about staying hygienic both in my personal care and in general. This is the point where i would say that i can handle a number of annoying stuff but, I cannot stand dirty people or places. They irk me and make my skin crawl. I can not stress this enough.
Is there even a way to go about with managing dirt? Wo! If you know, don't tell me.
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