I would say this topic for the first episode of this week's contest is like you having a therapy section but instead of doing it with someone, you are doing it with yourself, which I see as one thing everyone should do. We all should once in a while sit and evaluate our growth and I don't mean the physical growth but the mental growth and these are about checking how our decision-making ability has improved, the way we see and understand things and also just like the topic today.
Today my understanding, whenever you do this check-up on yourself and it comes out positive, It gives you this satisfaction that you are improving in life and your mental health is perfect and if all checks don't come out green then you would know the particular area to focus and improve on.
Stress in life is one certain thing humans must go through and this doesn't mean maybe being wealthy or poor, it's inevitable just like death, It might be financial stress, relationship stress which I hate so much probably why I'm still single, it might be family or chasing dream stress, your stress can come from anything but for me one of the things that stresses me out recently and I think have found a solution to it is friendship stress, although I have very few friends. I won't say it even friendship stress but that is just the only way I can qualify it then I explain you would understand better.
I'm one of those few people who can connect deeply with people and this is not just family alone or someone I'm in a relationship with, I mean random people I met or the ones I call friends and it so much affects my life in a way that, even in my happy moments, I still would be sad instead of celebrating because someone I know is not happy, just like putting people ahead of you which I felt was normal but I was wrong. My spirit connects so deeply to a certain point that, I don't need to hear your voice or text you sometime before I know something is wrong with you, I wish I could explain this better but I don't even know how. Sometimes it might just be while we are texting and I could sense something is wrong from the text, and one thing my spirit doesn't like is I'm fine, nothing is wrong.
The minute, my brain hears that it switch automatically into an overthinking mood and my brain begins to storm and sometimes it shuts down automatically, to me it was normal until I figured out that "in other to better for other, you have to better for yourself ". It was that quote that sunk deep into me and told me I needed I change my way of life and there is just one way to be better for myself was to cut people off, and taking an internet break was the less offensive way to cut people off and that first step made me realize a lot and it brought me self peace which I now value a lot. So when I meet people I try not to connect with them, no deep heart conversation and it is really hard for me to do this thing but I just have to not allow myself back into that state for everyone that comes into my life and it's working for me. That part of my life should be for some special ones.
This healing process I started months ago, has brought back a lot of myself that I have lost or dedicated to other people and it's also making me focus on a lot of other stuff that is beneficiary for my life.
Don't forget it's love from me to everyone
