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As a child we all had these dreams of the perfect career even when most of them are influenced by our parents, friends or movies. Yes I agree that the influence and passion for something can come from someone else or something else.
When I was younger I was usually very sick and my parents always had to take me to the hospital. Whenever the nurse was about to inject me with the medication, I would not cry and just stare at the process, this made her say that i was born to be a doctor. Over my multiple visits to the clinic as a child I got the same comments and my mom used to say I will be the doctor of the family.
Most kids my age back then normally changed career paths quite often. Today they want to be a pilot and the next day an astronaut but I never had that urge or feeling to change mine. I don't know if my lure to medicine and surgery stemmed from me constantly hearing comments like it was what I should do or if it was because I really wanted to do that. As i grew up and got to the stage of writing jamb, i did not get the required score to proceed with the dream course i had always wanted and the next year when i write jamb again i still did not get the required score so i went to study something else and through my new course i began to enjoy and start arranging my dreams and goals to align to it, at that point i realise that i never really wanted to be a medical doctor but wanted something in the health sector but more of a researcher in the lab. But frequently when i see doctors in real life or a movie i feel sad that i could not be one, it feels like i gave up on my dream like i am a coward. And maybe that feeling is because i held onto that dream for long as a child and when every other persons had change their dream a thousand times when younger i was changing mine now i was grown.
After my degree and NYSC i began questioning what i was going to do with my degree, if i should go further with masters. Thankfully I came across a scholarship program for cybersecurity, I applied and thankfully I got in. This was the birth of my new found passion recalling all those hacking movies i have watched, i found a new dream and it is one i quite enjoy.
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I made peace with the fact that dreams can change and it does not make one a coward. Even if it was my score that initially made me not able to get my first dream. I probably would have been happy if i got in and went down that road, but i am currently happy with my new one and in the end that's all that matters.