If Only I Could Keep It
They say "What will be will be." Sometimes Whenever I look back and see the kind of beautiful relationships I have lost, I am tempted to enter into the realm of blame, regrets, and the like but no matter what I do, those relationships can't be brought back.
Sometimes we even lose them for our own good. The presence of some people in our lives can be a threat.
I know we all make mistakes, we all overreact and act foolishly sometimes, but I believe that whatever was once in possession and is no more is just meant to be that way.
Don't get me wrong, sometimes we deliberately chase people that ought to be in our lives away, maybe through ignorance and lack of maturity yet their absence will definitely teach us something vital about life.
This is why I stopped beating myself too hard when I lost people. I will do all it takes to get anyone I treasure back into my life but when the person keeps declining, I'll have no option left than to move on.
During my final year in secondary school, my friend introduced me to a lady from his school. It all started with a bet. He claimed she was tough, and all the boys who tried to win her ended up with insults.
I love daring things, so, I asked for her number and he gave it to me. From the first day I called the lady, I knew she was going to give me a yes because of how smoothly our conversation went.
Within a very short period of time, I think a week, she accepted my request for a relationship. When I told my friend we were dating he didn't believe me. I had to show him our chats on Facebook, and Whatsapp and the text messages she sends as evidence.
They were in boarding school, so when he went back to school the following term, he asked her if there was anything between us and she affirmed.
I know you are wondering if we met before or not, well, we didn't. It was a blind relationship. We kept arranging to meet but things kept coming up.
The relationship became so strong, that we spoke virtually every day. Final-year students have their way of operating phones in school without getting caught.
We dated until we graduated from secondary school. When I got admitted into college, she sent one of her friends to come and see me. She wanted to come but her parents refused. I also wanted to visit her but she declined because she was scared and we were both young.
Her friend took the report back to her and she was so excited. We scheduled a meeting again but it still failed. She was in Abuja and I am in Nasarawa.
When I was in my second year in college, she told me she got admission into a polytechnic in Minna (Niger state). I was happy about it, she stayed for about two years at home after high school.
When she went to school, communication started to decrease. She started giving excuses using lectures as cover-up for not taking my calls or replying to my messages.
To worsen things, she said I should go to Minna, and to be honest, I did not have enough money for transportation. I was a student depending totally on my parents.
I assured her we would be cool and things would work out between us. She should trust me and bear with me for a while but the more I give her assurance, the weaker our bond grows.
Her line stopped going after a while. I searched for how to connect with her again but couldn't find it. I had to disturb her friend to get me her new line and I was lucky.
But my girl was gone by then, the relationship vibe was no longer there. But I held still. One day, while we were chatting she told me she wanted a break. I asked for her reason and she said she needed something serious. She wanted to settle down and obviously, I was not ready.
I was hurt to my bones, imagine the relationship I protected from secondary school up to my final year in college. Well, I didn't argue with her. I allowed her to have what she asked for.
I struggled with my emotions for some time and I healed. Along the line, she stopped being active on social media, she only posted pictures on Facebook and seldom replied to my messages.
Early last year, I met her friend in my town, and she told me her family relocated to my place. We spoke at length and she told me that my ex-girlfriend is getting married the following month. It hurt me badly but it's good news. The friend too was preparing for marriage LoL.
To cut the story short, I saw the wedding pictures and videos on Facebook. Don't ask how I felt, I bet you already know
Could it be salvaged?
Well, I can't tell, probably if I was financially ready then, it could have worked out because I am sure I would have gone to see her in school and things would have gone smoothly.
In another way, she was set for marriage and as of then, I wasn't, I was too young. Since marriage was what she wanted, I am sure we would have still parted ways even if I had the money because I wasn't ready.
