The Habit That Kept Me Caged
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One of many things that makes us human is our frailness. No matter how excellent we are, there are areas of our lives that act as a barrier to our growth.
This is why it's unthoughtful to expect any human to be perfect, a person can have a good heart, give like Father Christmas, and genuinely love yet battle with anger issues. It happens.
It's part of the reason why I do my best to focus on the good aspects of people's lives rather than the bad because we all have one. The person you think is a demon might be a saint to someone out there. People's weaknesses should not be the reason why we write them off.
Beyond every ugliness in the heart of every man lies beauty, it only needs to be worked upon.
As a person, I have so many weaknesses, the only thing that can testify probably is my phone because I am with it all the time. Whenever I get praise from people I laugh and say to myself if only they knew how I battle with myself too.
You see everyone out there that we presume are Superman and superwomen, most of them have their secret battles. Forget the kind of results you see outside, if only they would open up what's on the other side, you would know that humans are human.
But what makes the difference is that they refused to let their predicament pull them down. It's how we win in life, the battle of overcoming our frailness, our weaknesses, and lapses is by not giving up on working on them. The battle is an endless one for sure, you overcome one, another pops up, and as we keep dealing with them, we become better personalities.
I have several weaknesses as a person. Some I was able to fight off while others were still there. One of the ones that is still there and I am struggling with is a lack of commitment to my words.
I went through one of the journals I dumped recently, and I was surprised to see a number of goals and principles I laid down for myself and I was ashamed of myself because I didn't achieve any of them.
I find it easy to say I want to do something, sometimes I even go further by starting that thing but give me a little time and I will stop it. The energy will just fizzle out.
I lack the ability to say I'll do this thing and then do it. I set laws and principles for myself but I don't follow any of them. It's easier for me to keep to what another person tells me than what I tell myself.
I looked at my life and I saw the kind of damage this bad habit has caused me and seriously I am not pleased with it. There were friends I said I was going to do away with because they were influencing me negatively, and I started it. I even changed my phone number but not for up to a week, I started calling them with the new line.
I will tell myself that I will not chat on social media so that I can have time to work but before you know it, I am already on Facebook. I envy my friends who set standards for themselves and work by them. It feels like they are using some supernatural powers to stay disciplined. For me, I only have words, but zero discipline. The truth remains that if we can't commit to our words, we can't commit to anything at all.
The setback I am experiencing in my life is not for anything but for the fact that I am not disciplined enough to commit to my words. if I can break out from it, I know the kind of positive change it will bring in my life.
What Are You Doing About It?
We can't undo a bad habit overnight, some take days, some weeks, some months, and some even years. Though, I still fail sometimes yet here is what I do to combat the weakness
1 . Force myself to do every task I say I am going to do.
2 . Punish me when I fail to commit to my word by either prolonging my meal time or going on break on certain things that I love doing the most.
3 . Focus more on the benefits I would get if I committed to doing whatever I stated out for myself.
