Is it necessary to have a purpose of life?

Life is the most uncertain thing on this earth, and death is the most certain thing on earth. Nobody can deny the fact, even if they want to. Nobody can live forever in this beautiful world, but nobody wants to leave this world either, but we have no power to decide it. It can be called fate, or it's the law of nature.

We all know the truth and but we don't remember about it all the time. I think it's good for us that we forget about our death; otherwise, we would not chase something great in this world because the fear of death may restrict us from doing many great things. I read some quotes saying that our life is not only ours. It belongs to everyone, and we need to bear the responsibility for everyone. Our life has a purpose, for sure. Since morning I have been thinking about the purpose of my life.

It's not the first time I am thinking about it. Many times I asked myself who I am, why I am still alive, and what's the purpose of my life? Some people say that it's easy to find the answer, but honestly, it's the most difficult to find the answer to those questions. Those questions are quite simple, but those are the most difficult questions to answer, and maybe one life is not enough to find the answer, at least for me. Believe me, in the last few hours I am continuously trying to get a clear answer to those questions, and I didn't get a clear answer. Let me share my thoughts.

Since my childhood, I have been a straightforward and disciplined person. My thoughts were quite practical and logical since that time, and little by little I made myself like a robot. In schools and universities, people still call me by the name although I still feel I have the emotions. I think they are right because, compared to them, I am a kind of robot and hardly get distracted from anything. I think I don't care too much about my emotions also and it can be easily dominated by me.

I am a student of science, and I think I have chosen it because it is the best option and can offer maximum facility when it comes to a career in the future. From science, I had the option to transfer to the Business Studies and Humanities group, and I had 4 years to decide. Fortunately, I enjoyed science and didn't change it any time. Some students want to be doctors, some want to be engineers, and some want to be teachers, but in my case, I never had a dream like that. I never decided to be something in life. I just wanted to get the best result in each case and tried to arrange maximum opportunities to decide. My thoughts were quite simple. If I get the best result, I will have the opportunity to choose any direction I want. So, I always try to be the best version of myself; it doesn't matter what path I choose.

Let's come to life experience. I have good achievements in academics only, but in case of the remaining things, I feel I am a below-average person. I don't think highly of myself, and I don't think I can bring about any revolutionary change in society. At the current time, I have only one thought in my mind, and it's how to make more money because I feel money is the thing that can give me power and ability. It's the thing that can give me the ability to change many things if I want. I want to help poor people, but I don't think it's my purpose in life. I will do it just because I want to. That's it.

I think I am a selfish person, and I don't think too much about society as well for the country, but at the same time, I feel I won't harm society or the country for my selfish derise. Although I am selfish and kind of robotic, I am not so heartless to hurt others for selfish desires. At least I know myself better in this case. Right now I am thinking of bearing responsibility for my family and taking care of the financial things of my family, and I want to make more money for me to travel. But I don't think those can be the purpose of anyone's life, as everyone does the same.

So, I think I have no answer to those questions. I didn't have a clear purpose in life till now, and I don't know if I will get the answer to those questions anytime. I just think I am alive, which means there must be some purpose in life, and I am just playing the role, and it's not necessary for me to know the purpose of my life as long as I try my best to do everything from my position. I think simple, and I don't want to bother myself thinking about those questions, as I feel it's not necessary to find an answer to those questions.