When I saw that the topic on "falling in love" didn't make it into this week's list of topics for the contest, I was a little bit disappointed and this was because I had promised myself that I would write on it if it did...and this wasn't because I recently fell in love or even fully remember what it feels to be in love, it's just because I know writing on the topic would force me to try to think and remember what it used to feel like back in the day, and maybe just remind myself of what I'm currently missing out on or what I saved myself from.
Anyways, even though there isn't much I remember about love, one thing I do know is that when you're on the right side of it, it can be beautiful. And this is because it just feels like you're floating all the time and nothing else matters except that one person who makes you feel that way.
You find yourself laughing at their jokes, even though it isn't really funny...you find yourself enjoying every bit of your conversation with them. I remember one time in the past where I would often stare at my then girlfriend just because I couldn't get enough of her.
Of course she thought it was creepy and would often ask me why I was staring, to which I would tell her how happy I was being with her and how I couldn't just stop admiring her.
Those were happy days, the beginning of a relationship, the time where it just feels like they could do no wrong until they eventually do, then you enter the wrong side of love.
I probably could count on one hand how many times I've fallen in love with someone and that is because I always try to hold myself back whenever I'm with someone new and they're starting to make me smile in ways I shouldn't be smiling.
Love is beautiful, love is everything good, but when it goes wrong like mine have done a couple times, love could be the worse thing that happened to you.
I know how many times in the past I've tried to disappear just to get far away from someone I used to love, someone I've made sacrifices for.
If you ask me, the best part of love or a relationship is when you're just falling in love with them, the beginning, because everything always goes downhill from there, unless you find a way to always fall in love with the same person over and over again, to make each day your beginning.
