These past few days has been an emotional roller coaster for me. I had allowed my emotions to get the better part of me and ended up ruining my day with moodswings that I couldn't even pinpoint the cause of it.
You see, I used to pride myself as someone who has gotten enough control over his emotions that even if I do get upset by someone, I could control myself in a way where I could have a long conversation with them without showing how upset I am, almost like how women are good at hiding the fact that they know their spouse or partner is cheating on them and just wouldn't say anything for days or even weeks.
But the events of the past few days has revealed to me that I'm not like that. I'm confrontational, always wanting to face everything head on the moment I hear about it. And that, I've come to find out is really bad because I always end up making silly mistakes along the way, mistakes that later becomes obvious to me after I had settled down and is no longer upset.
Anyways, I may have lied when I said I had no idea why I've been feeling this way because about two days ago, someone who used to be a friend had said something really annoying and insultive to me, something that had to do with my personal life.
And why this thing got to me was because I saw it coming from a mile away and tried to avoid it, unfortunately it didn't happen directly to me, it happened to someone important in my life...and why it got to me was because that person had refused to listen to my warnings that I had earlier given to them about this ex-friend of mine, and then they ended up putting themselves in a position where they could be used to insult me and not them.
That was probably why it got to me because I couldn't do anything about it directly, because it wasn't exactly a direct attack. It was an attack that got to me due to the ignorance of this other person who could have avoided this whole thing if only they had simply listened to me in the first place when I had warned them about this other person.
Anyway, the whole experience was an eye-opener for me and I hope it was an eye-opener for the other person too, and hopefully they get to listen to me next time or I will do the one thing I know how to do best, which is to protect myself..and I will do that even if it means cutting this other person off too.