For the first time in a long time, I finally decided that peace wasn't an option and cut off someone from my life, and although I feel I did what was best for me, it still felt like I had taken a step backwards in my goal of living a free loving life where I carry no hate in my heart.
Someone had pissed me off some few weeks ago, and because of the fact that it was a lady, I couldn't say anything or shout at her like I would have done if a fellow guy had been the one who offended me. And now, I think that because of that reason, because I didn't express myself at that moment, all of that anger has gathered up in me and made me have some kind of resentment towards this person.
I say that because I believe that if I had expressed my anger when the situation happened, I would have gotten over it by now and we both probably would have gotten passed it and will be good.
The disappointing thing about this entire situation was when another friend of mine heard about it and approached me about it. He had told me how surprised he was when he heard about it because he has always known me to be a chill guy and not someone to hold a grudge.
That got to me because it showed the amount of progressed I've made on myself, how it was also very obvious to other people and also how I was retracting in that progress.
It almost made me walk up to the lady to just make peace but like I said, peace wasn't an option and this was because I do believe that if I overlook this one, it definitely would repeat itself again and this time, I will have myself to be blamed.
This is a perfect situation of the quote "Once bitten, twice shy"...
