In a couple of days we will be getting into the ember month and over here, the ember month is kinda like a reminder than in no distant time, we will be paying another rent. So as usual, the boys have began conversations on if they will remain at the hostel or move to a much more better place.
Last year, I had made up my mind to move for various reasons and had even gone to look for a new place, but had changed my mind at the last minute after my friends that I was suppose to move with had changed their minds too. Well, this coming year is going to be different because I don't really have a choice but to move. And this is because I will be going for my national youth service corp (NYSC) which will be happening in an entire different state in the country.
And even if I change my mind and decide not to go for the service, I will be moving anyway because my hostel lacks a lot of things that other hostel has. So the moving part is kinda settled, there is no argument about it, but then I've been thinking lately, about what it would feel like having to move to an entirely new environment and starting afresh.
You see although for a while now I've always felt like I needed to start over, I've never been one to do well in a place where I'm the only new person there and that is why I always make sure to take someone along with me whenever I go to somewhere new, and most times I don't even care how much more it would cost me having to bring someone extra along, I just do it so that I could be comfortable and at least have someone to talk to.
This was the same reason why I had also changed my mind of moving out last year when they all changed their minds because I didn't want to be the only one moving.
Anyways, I guess it's one of those times where I have to face my fears as usual because it doesn't seem like I have a choice, I'm leaving one way or the other, I just have to be prepared to leave alone and start afresh all by myself with strangers that I will be meeting for the first time...
I'm sure it will be a bitter-sweet experience for me, on one hand it will be fun, while on the other hand it would be a bit sad because I would miss my friends and everyone from my old life.
Anyways, let's watch and see... Who knows, I might love starting afresh.