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When I am writing this post, I guess I am also in a depression phase with eyes sunken in the skull due to lack of sleep. Depression is any state when one feels very disappointed, and sad and loses interest in everything around. And probably all these thrice criteria fit on me.
Depression is such an evil that everyone if not often at least encounters it for the it time in life. It leaves you in a state where your mental peace fades away, you become exhausted and your decision power fades away.
Back in the years, I used to think that there existed no such thing as depression. It is just hype created by some people to get attention. But I have been proved wrong in recent years. I have found many cases throughout my university life where I found many suffering from it. Depression had really killed their happiness and their urge to enjoy themselves with others.In some cases, I happened to listen to the cause of depression while in some I haven’t.
But today I am not going to share any of those to that as I think it’s not ethical. Though I will not reveal the name still it is not a good way I think. I will tell you about the situation I am feeling these days.
I am about to complete my graduation as I have mentioned in many of my blogs. The inception of graduation year though brought an excitement of finishing another chapter of life but along with that brought the hectic responsibilities of practical life as well. Now the laikadaissical life will end here and a new journey of strives will commence. The journey in which I will have to compete for livelihood and status in society.
The major drawback of being an overthinker is that you always think which is not necessary. I have also been stuck in a situation where there are many ways. All the ways will lead me to my destiny but I am unable to pick any one of them and this thing is depressing me. I am attending career counseling sessions just to make me pick the path that will suit me most but still, I am unable to do that.
What depresses you most is seeing people’s expectations of you. People look towards you in many ways i.e. seeking motivation, seeking guidance and seeking help as well. The pressure of expectations from parents is not easy to cope with. Yes, they do support you but from inner them, they also get disappointed if their kid doesn’t get what they expect him to get.
The urge decide the right path from here onward,the ambition to bright my future and the want of fulfilling the expectations of my loved ones is really causing depression of mind. I am searching for the best idea and route but I am stuck on many ones. I am unable to decide my next move. Yes, we learn through experiences but I just don't want to waste my time. I want to utilize each second of it to achieve all the ambitions I dreamt and and fulfill all the expectations set on me.
So how am I coping with it?
By depressing others😂hehe yes. I call up my soulmates, share with them my state, and then ask them what have decided. Their dim voices clearly speak that I am not alone on this boat past the North Atlantic. They are also struggling to decide on their first move and this satisfies me a lot. I don't know whether it is negativity residing inside me. So this is how up till now I relieve myself from that depressed state.
This is my entry for #hl-exclusiv and #hl-w107e1.
