I Am Alive And Tired Of Being Phobic

in #hive-15522122 days ago

Hello friends! I was once again scared of a bug when I woke up today (sigh), so let's get my mind off and talk about other things. Have I mentioned I am really tired of this fucking bug phobia? Really tired. I hate startling right out of my skin over a tiny little creature. I wish I could logic my way out of it, but unfortunately that's not how it works. Yes, I have tried various solutions. Believe it or not, I'm better than I used to be, but not cured.


Yuan isn't scared

The chocolate drops are still looking like grass heads with no blooms yet. I wonder if they are waiting on pollenators. There used to be bees below my balcony hanging out in the sage bushes, but they cut the sage bushes down to stumps this year and I don't know why. :( I haven't seen the bees. Nor the yellow swallowtail butterflies that live on the other side of the building.

On a positive note, I finally got a sprout in the big planter! Just one so far, but I'm happy about it. I was worried that nothing was coming up. I planted zinnias as well as very old sunflower seeds. I thought the sunflowers might be too old, but the zinnia seeds aren't. So I'm happy to see something has finally sprouted since I planted those a while ago!

A couple of cool photos from rainbow time (I have prisms hanging in the windows):

I embroidered a new patch the other day. 😇


Eat the rich/tasty treat/billionaire barbeque/carbon negative meat

A bug that didn't scare the pee out of me was in the garden:

And Sanglainn says hello:


Hello humans

That's about it from me. I hope y'all have a wonderful day and thanks for reading. :)

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OMG dearest you're really working through some tough stuff with your bug phobia. It's awesome to hear about your gardening successes though. Keep focusing on those little wins, they always add up. !LUV

I love the cool pictures and it looks like Yuan keeps your company all the time
Right?

Yes, he's my best friend, we stick together. 🥰😸

Yuan seem to be brave😅
And why are you scared of a mere bug?

Because I have a phobia. Phobias are by definition not logical things with logical reasons.

Sorry to hear you have a bug phobia! the one phobia that is hard to avoid 😩 I have no advice but glad you’ve made progress. Maybe thinking that they’re very important for the ecosystem helps? But I don’t know really if that even helps haha. But yeah I hope you’re able to conquer that one day and not have to be hypervigilant all the time cos that’s so exhausting!

Right! I'm like, if the bugs would just stay outside, lol. At least outside I can run away. 😂

What particular bug are you scared of? You seem to be missing the bees...😊
Really tough to have a phobia. What I do is talk myself out of it (a lot of self-talking) and it seems to be working or at least that's what I thought. 😅
Yuan will rescue you! 🥰😻
Ps. Still can't see photos...

It isn't a specific bug, it's anything really. The bigger and faster it is, the more scared I am.

So happy that you let your mind to stop thinking of the bug, and received positive things, I think the solution for you to stop being scared of the bug is to grab a long stick when you see one and flog it 🥰

I tried actually but I missed, lol

Try and try again, never stop trying 🥰
Happy weekend to you.

I'm sorry to hear that you are still dealing with that phobia.
It's understandable that you feel tired of dealing with it.
I hope you find the right solution to overcome that fear.
Cheer up!


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