I woke this morning with a stream of blood crusted down my cheek and a dull sensation in my jaw reminding me of yesterday's molar extraction. The overnight bleeding had created large quantities of coagulated blood in my nasal passage and back of throat making it impossible to sleep more. I had to cough deep to get it all out but this only had the effect of pumping blood from the open wound at a greater rate and the scene in our white bathroom was like something out of a horror movie. I smiled in the face of pure carnage before clearing it up :)
Two weeks earlier i had seen in the new year with my French family, enjoying a relatively pain free evening, but just when i was thinking about bedtime around 2am the pain began in a way i had never before experienced and this left me pacing around the house in agony till 9am. Nothing seemed to help, except movement. So i guess you can imagine how tired i was by 9am? Couple this with the fact that i was already shattered from food poisoning along with my whole family during the post Christmas period. Sabrina & i first, then the children. Esteban & Luna seen here on Dec 30th, intermittently vomiting and incapacitated for two days.
Plus i was already tired from months of disturbed painful sleep, so the morning of the 1st of Jan 2024 was unquestionably one of the hardest of my life.
I even swore that morning i would stop drinking alcohol & coffee!
So far so good with that...
20h after the extraction now and blood continues to flow at an alarming rate. Am collecting around one cup every hour which i intend to dilute with water and feed to the garden.
Waste not this precious fluid I say!
In any other life i would probably describe the dull sensation in my constantly bleeding mouth as pain, the anaesthetic having worn off while i slept, but my relationship with "nature's way of telling us something is wrong" has been a long one and the feeling of an extracted tooth is like a tickle compared to the pain i have grown accustomed to over the last few years.
I viewed outbreaks as opportunities to naturally push myself harder toward finding frequency based solutions which i could then share with others in the form of articles. I learned to cherish the pain free moments above everything else because to exist without pain was like a blissful dream, full of consistent gratitude for every little joy life has to offer. Just as it should be one could say?
A few days ago however the pain reached that crazy level again where i can't eat, can't sleep, can't bend down, can't breathe out my mouth, can't crap, can't cough and most of the time i can't stop pacing around the house as this seems the only thing which helps. Going through this experience for the second time i knew enough was enough and it was wonderful to see how quickly the solution manifested once the decision had been made.
But why Sam would you put yourself through this growing pain for the last two years?
Well, let me see if I can explain in a way that makes sense.
Seek the path of least resistance
There is a law here in France which prohibits dentists from removing a tooth without later filling the hole in some unnatural manner and i made the mistake two years ago with our local dentist of refusing all the terrible follow-up options he presented me with. And no, i also did not want him to "save" the tooth by giving me a root canal procedure! I know too much about root canals now to ever have one again. The result was an argument and he banned my entire family from his practice, obviously without removing the tooth.
I took this as a sign from the Universe that another way must be found to resolve the problem so when i discovered frequency based healing last year this felt a lot like the answer. And for a while it was! I am using three frequency devices regularly now, all of which do have an unquestionable effect on low level pain. The trouble is, when we are dealing with a rotten tooth and acute pain no amount of frequency will fix it. At least, none that i have been able to find on my current budget.
Pain the motivator
I mentioned how there was nothing which would make the pain stop but what i didn't mention was that in those last few days i was able to stop it for periods of up to 5mins after which i would need my 'treatment' again.
But what was this magical treatment which permitted brief spells of comfort when nothing else did?
It was water, blessed by Sabrina so that it would know what it was for.
Our family has been developing its relationship with water for the last month ever since i created this system it must go through before drinking and it occurred to me that two souls intent on the same goal (a pain free Sam) would be more effective than one, especially when the joint request was directed into this refreshed & energised water, which could be swilled around the mouth at any time to achieve the desired result instantly.
If i tried swilling regular water in my mouth it had no effect on the pain, but when i used blessed water the pain would subside to almost nothing within around 10seconds. The effect was always short-lived however, forcing me to drink another sip of water 5mins later. If i continued this game drinking blessed water every 5mins for a total period of ten hours, the pain would go away completely and i could sleep. Exhausted. And full of magic water!
So what i want to say here is that the pain motivated me to try something i would not have ordinarily tried and now i have seen its wonderful effect, i realise that my entire family blessing the water (even those abroad!) may just have healed the tooth completely. I saw how Esteban was able to take the pain away with his magic wand (directed intentions) and i saw how Sabrina was able to take the pain away by blessing structured water (directed intentions), so imagine the power of my full extended family focusing their intentions on Sam's magic water!
The possibilites here are endless and i remain grateful to my molar for showing me this final important lesson right before her demise.
Journey well dear tooth 🙏
Pain the teacher
Getting the last minute dentist appointment was one thing, but getting out of there without being forced into further appointments was another. Not turning up to any appointments beyond the removal of the tooth was always an option but i preferred not to go this route as the dentist was a personal friend of Sabrina's mum and had gone out of his way to put me at the top of the waiting list. It seemed i would need special mind-control tricks to achieve this goal without rocking the boat!
Well, when a person is in extreme pain they are prepared to go to any lengths for relief so i had as a consequence been reading about the mind control tricks described in The Magic of Psychotronic Power by Robert B. Stone just when the dentist provided the required opportunity to test out what i had learned.
Many thanks to @in2itiveart for alerting me to this book!
Stone's technique involves picturing oneself in a special pre-prepared room and then visualising the scene playing out as you would like it. I had 20mins in the dentist's waiting room, providing ample opportunity for this meditation and truly i was blown away at how simple it was from there. He removed the tooth without any hesitation and told me there was no need to return, unless i wanted to. This is not the normal process for a dentist but for some reason he didn't feel like following protocol in that moment so i thanked him for his prompt work (no more than 10mins) and headed home to celebrate.
I will get that book posted in the @survival-archive account asap. An essential read as far as I am concerned.
Pain the trainer
My relationship with pain spans back to the age of six when I tried to do a cool ski jump and broke my leg because one of the skis didn't come off during the tumble. Back then MRIs didn't exist in too many hospitals so the damaged cartilage went unnoticed and due to growing pain years later I developed a barely noticeable but unique way of walking without pain, which ultimately put pressure on the other knee and this led to further pain later in life and finally key-hole surgery to remove the cartilage.
The way I walk is still pretty messed up but I don't feel pain in my knees any more, thanks I would say largely to our three gardens and all the physical work this forces me into.
These days I feel the pain in my feet! Well, not so much in the winter. But in the summer, due to my constantly bare feet I experience the sensation of sharp stones all the time and have noted over the years that less and less I am associating this sensation with pain. It's just something which happens when we walk barefoot and there is no more judgement, no more angry face or feeling of annoyance. It just is.
So what I want to say here is that my long relationship with pain has led me very naturally to the tooth pain, which I understand now was one of the most intense kinds of tooth pain a person can experience. What remained of the tooth was black already two years ago with the nerve exposed, so I think you can imagine what it looked like a week ago. Showing it to Sabrina last week was actually the motivator for the dentist. She freaked out basically fearing the worst and told her mother who is personal friends with the dentist. He wouldn't see me without an appointment but was willing to put me at the top of an emergency waiting list, warning that people rarely cancelled. Well, 48h later someone did cancel and I had my appointment.
Remaining 'in the moment' (a state of non judgement) is one of the most important lessons we can learn here on this physical playground, so having now experienced such an intense kind of pain for the last two years I feel as if I am better placed to deal with any potential pains in the future and will view them in a way which does not waste time with labels such as 'good' or 'bad', permitting me a direct move to any course of required action without changing my vibration.
Final thoughts
When I first discovered electroculture a year ago I did not initially understand how these beneficial frequencies could be reproduced without the devices, as described by @clareartista in her wonderful garden which demonstrated clearly the effect of her presence alone.
In the silence of meditation I am able to feel how the human body is a mobile frequency generator but it had not occurred to me that a collective of bodies with focused minds could be so much more effective than one.
So my journey with pain has helped me see beyond a mental limitation and as I mentioned before, the next time a member of our family has pain I will deal with it in a very different way. No devices, no herbs, no medicine, just LOVE from a collective of focused minds who have come together with a strong intention for a specific purpose.
Furthermore, my first removed tooth finally provides opportunity to grow a new one! The common line is that it can't be done but obviously this isn't true. In order for it to happen however the old root must of course be removed. So now this is done I can attend to the task of letting my body know what will happen next...
I apologise to those of you I promised devices early this year. Production has been sporadic these last months due to the pain and even the Christmas presents I made for my family are still sitting on my desk! But this did at least permit me the time to photograph them as intended and add them to my website.
I was able to complete a Sacred, Lost & Empowerment tensor ring set for @drrune today and am proud to present this unique style as my own, complete with spirals & rose quartz crystals.
The colours are a natural effect of welding and am confused why people normally clean this off? Looks great to me!
Am not yet 100% but can feel myself coming back in ways I had forgotten and am excited to get back into a pain-free creation routine which will potentially never stop.
There are 31 products on the website now but all prior commitments will be fulfilled before it goes online.
Come to think of it i would like for the hive community to get first access to these products before the site goes live and will figure out the best way for this to happen. Not have spoken to many people about this your feedback on the site and my proposed method of exchange will be highly valued.
Will get a post up on this soon enough.
For now i'm just nursing a hole (which has thankfully stopped bleeding) and enjoying the simple things again like sitting at a piano, instinctively composing for a prolonged period of time without pain. A beautiful piece of music came through me almost immediately in fact! May have to record this one.
Esteban is very much following in my footsteps at the piano and also spends a lot of time composing from his heart.
Feeling inspired to document this exciting period of rebirth i have picked up the book made by Sabrina as my Christmas present and turned it into a diary.
With these pages i am going to become more aware of the Greater Me who is so evidently connected to the Cosmos and to Mother Nature herself, by attaching extra info to each day like moon phase and planetary alignments. In time the patterns will become evident.
I think the overall lesson from this 'tooth chapter' is clear enough.
Look for the guidance pain has to offer but be careful not to compromise your experience of life in the process, remembering too that a prolonged period of pain, once remedied will always lead to a prolonged period of bliss!
It really is bliss my friends and it comes with a powerful kind of energy permeating my experience at all times 💜
My intention now is to use this energy for the better good of everyone with the ongoing creation of awesome frequency devices 🌀
Love & Light for 2024 🌱
Here is Esteban drawing his first Flower of Life.
Art images by myself and the midjourney bot. Prompts available on request.
