Hey yall! Hope you are doing well! Today I was going around my old files and found one of my major stepping stone.I thought it would be good to talk about this work a bit.Because on my previous post, I saw a comment about artist frustration so I felt like I can touch those lands.
The time period I was able to pull this one out was so frustrating for me.I wasn't in control of my workflows,I had no income, I was so stressed about about my portfolio and couldn't be able to sculpt one good thing in my eyes.Days passed and I couldn't pull myself back from overcriticising not only my work also my wholeself.Everything was in a rush and only thing I was doing was sitting,looking to 4 walls of my room one by one again,again and again.
H.R. Giger is one of my greatest influences, the way he thinks and his execution of work is just out of this world for me.So I watched his documentary,checked Necronomicon once more and watched alien 1 once more.He has a quote "You get talent when you discover the ground of your pain." the second I remembered that quote I just directly got into zbrush and wanted to do something different.I just wanted to carve a sphere from nothingness without basemesh or anything.I was totally zoned out for 5-6 hours and this was standing infront of me.
I was just stunned, thought "Was that this easy?" It was the wrong question once again.We idealize aesthetics,way other people live like We should all do the same thing.Even if you have the Worlds tomorrow is a total uncertainty and All we have for this moment is being ourselves especially with what We create.I was so into creating something beautiful that I forgot the only way,the way I can reflect myself.I didn't have any references before that there was me crucified in this organic mess I've been living in and it only took one sentence to let me look at that gruesome but perfect picture to recreate it.
Be yourselves beautiful people
Hope this means something for any of you who dealing with similar things.
Hope you like it!
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