A friend recently suggested I go into coding they felt I could do it, why? They think I have the brain. However, deep down it feels like I don't have the juice. I've been a content creator for 9 years. Back in the day as a literature teacher, you'd have to be painstakingly creative to beat off competition to keep your job.This means that there are people who are willing to take your job, the only way they don't is if, you offer "extra" a form of uniqueness that sells you comfortably. This is where the content-creating aspect came from.
As a literature teacher, I wrote over 300 literary works and I used them as a subject matter that explain literary concepts to my students, they were astonishing works that I never got to publish, (maybe I'll try very soon).
Maybe not
These days I've tried too hard to replicate the level of my content-creating abilities and I've failed woefully at it. Firstly I felt I needed a reimbursement, maybe buy a course on Udemy, go on a holiday, go back to take a professional course in literature, or just take a break for three months.But if I do all these, then how do I get to pay the bills? Someone might say "oh you can multitask" but the thing is, multitasking is what got me here.
I felt I'm getting to suffer the repercussions of being overly creative for far too long at the expense of working for money. I've had to kill some dreams I could have pursued in my life because they weren't lucrative enough.
The Most Lucrative Choice
There was a time I had the opportunity to assist an architect and learn through the ropes, the man had seen my sketching skills and felt I'd make a great architect, he was a man who was comfortably doing well for himself, but he felt I could do better than him. At the end of the day, I had to give up that dream because another potential dream.
I come from a place where your hustling/learning process needs to be instantaneously monetized irrespective of your age, your development, or mental readiness. It's been learning and earning for me from age 17 at the same time because I didn't have that luxury. It's been like that for almost 12 years now.
Being In The Loop Or Losing Your Essence?
Why The damn not?
I've had to go through stages of development while thinking of food, shelter, clothing, and being a provider at the same time. I'd give up anything not to have lead. Recently, I think I've gotten to that peak in my life where I try to push for something extra, but I keep hitting walls when I try. For example, I've tried to come up with a business plan with my potential business partner who I've been planning to set up a business with within the summer of next year, but I cannot.
It's been eventful and sometimes I ask myself if I've pushed myself too much. I live in a country where your chances of survival are based on the skills you have and the people you know and not the degrees you've bagged.
The bitter reality
It's either you are a self-made rich business person or you're made rich because of the people you know who happen to know another set of people, who now gets you a job. The people who are neither of these are the ones who find it difficult to get traction especially when they compete too hard and run out of juice because their hustle isn't tethered to anything tangible.
But because people want to make money, they give off their mental health, they compromise their moral principles their happiness, or even comfort to secure a job. This is because we see "need and want" as the biggest challenge in life.
The Disparity We all Loathe
Health is often underrated and this is why people die in jobs, get maimed, or even lose their lives trying too hard to get to the pinnacle of success. I often do not blame these people. Even when their actions are questionable, you'd need to know their intent before you create a basis for judgment.
Some people aren't even 40, but they've been providers for close to 25 years of their lives, some are close to 40, and they've gotten everything they need in life without having to struggle for anything or anyone. Life is cruel, and the disparity it creates sometimes is unfair. Sometimes I tend to look at the worst-case scenarios in my life and the thoughts that I might have tuned out way worse are what keep me in the loop. As for now, I think I need a break, maybe off everything.
Interested in some more of my works?
The Intrinsic Propensity To Spend Money
Poverty: The Unwillingness To Spend?
A Scenic Bathroom Photoshoot
The Importance Of Having A Contingency Money Plan
Translational Value; What Is Your Worth?
Using Crypto As A Means Of Transferring Will
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