Hey guys, how are you doing? So today I woke up and remembered that it’s another day to write another post. When I started blogging on Hive 3 years ago, it was really exciting, it was one of the best things to do three years ago. I was really excited, my interest for crypto was growing, I was doing a lot of research learning about crypto to blog on Hive which is something I am eternally grateful for. Fortunately it was getting a lot of upvotes and I was making some decent amount writing about crypto and how I feel. It got exhausting a lot of times but I got so addicted to writing and getting pleasure from seeing people upvote my post and knowing I have the power to do some quick write and post and make some money to pay bills with. Hive gave me this decentralized freedom where I could do whatever I liked and I felt so good as long as I wasn’t breaking any rules.
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I was quick to spread the word because it’s an amazing platform where you come write, pour out your thoughts and make some money, no matter how big or small it may feel, it felt nice regardless. Unfortunately I started feeling some odd vibes when some certain people wanted to control how I post, or how I interact on the blockchain which doesn’t sit right with me because Hove gave me this feeling that for once in my life I have a platform that I can control and not be told what to do as long as I didn’t break any rules. Some people started complaining on how many posts I make or the intervals I was posting them. Hive went from my comfort place to express myself, set goals and achieve them to becoming scared to post because I didn’t know which whale was going to come and complain or downvote me.
I got some downvotes from people I never offended, they were angry because I was posting and getting upvoted. Well that’s life, discouraged me so many times from posting on Hive because I wasn’t getting that freedom feeling I used to get when I started Hive 3 years ago. I went from having posting streaks and promising myself that I won’t break my streak, to getting scared and limiting how many I post. I went from posting everyday to getting scared if posting everyday will offend anyone. So I decided to stop getting attached to Hive anymore since I was scared of some whales downvoting my post.
But while I am off Hive not writing, at the end of the day, I still want to write and post because Hive streak writing was something I was extremely proud of. So I write, post and feel better. Writing and posting still gives me that satisfactory feeling of an achievement at the end of the day, because that was what I used to feel 3 years ago when I started Hive because I was in a depressed state in my life then. Today I am better in all aspect but I can’t help it but try and show up and post here. This is what keeps me going and motivates me to keep showing up and writing here.
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