Greetings everyone!
I'm happy to participate once again in this weekly engagement post proposed by @galenkp, and I'm so happy for the interesting topics released by the admins and the liberty that is given to everyone in this community to choose any topic suitable for the person to write about.
Finding myself in a college of medicine was not accidental, but at the same time, I didn't expect what I'm seeing now. I thought the journey would be easy, but every day I wish I could become invisible raging from how tedious the school activities are and how we are being trained here.
Medical laboratory science is a demanding course to study at the university, and it's very competitive as well. Sometimes, I will wake up by 5:30 a.m. Nigeria time to prepare for classes only to come back late in the evening.
I always wish I could become invisible because what I'm seeing now in this college of medicine is the opposite of what I heard before I entered, but I always tell myself that if some students were able to pass through this school, I too could do it, regardless of how demanding the activities may be.
Practicals and research make me wish to become invisible in this school so that everything will just end once and for all.
Imagine attending practicals on Mondays, Tuesdays, and Fridays by 10:00 a.m. Nigerian time only to finish by 5:00 p.m. You won't even eat or drink anything because it's unprofessional while the practicals are going on, to avoid the practical specimens contaminating your food. I will come back late in the evening to cook, wash my lab clothes and school uniform, take a nap, and prepare for night class.
It overwhelms me sometimes, but I never give the circumstances a chance to weigh me down. Due to the limited time we have in the college of medicine and how the school calendar is running, some lecturers will even fix classes on Saturday, which is supposed to be my rest day, because I believe that work without much rest will only break one down.
Frankly speaking, psychologically, emotionally, and mentally, I do feel overwhelmed and alone, and I wish I could just disappear so that I wouldn't have to face the challenges of school but I always motivate myself that in the end, I will return to my regular life with a newfound appreciation for what I have gotten.
