I already spoke about this a couple times but if I will tell it a few more times maybe I will learn from my mistakes? Being heartbroken is one thing. Being heartbroken over something that could never happen is just stupid. Few years ago I really liked a girl from Hive. She lived in a different country so we never met. Yet I already had dreams about living together. I was mad enough that I asked her to have online date with me. It ended how you may expect- she did not respond to my message and we never met. For a while I still had those foolish dreams. I believed that as long as we would meet at a Hivefest everything would just magically end happily. So I tried to get to two Hivefests. I failed both times and then finally figured out that maybe this is just not meant to be? A sane person would have come to this conclusion must sooner and would have not spend a few years of their life chasing the impossible dream. I clearly liked her more than she liked me. And who could blame her? I am neither Brad Pitt or Elon Musk so I never had the looks or money needed to make this international romance even slightly possible. Looking back all this thing was very stupid. Instead of making 4 art pieces where I used this girls photos as an outline and wondering what to say to her online I should have focused on bettering myself, my art and my blog. Had I done that who knows maybe we would have even met in some distant place. A real romance was probably never in the cards. But had I taken things more slowly and improved myself maybe a little fling or some sparks were possible? That may not have been enough for me but at least it would have been a positive thing. Anyway after this story I am staying away from international romances...and from romances at all.(I tried asking a few other girls out after this but I was unsuccessful again.)
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