If only I had another life available...
I would be born with other genes and my current legacy unknown, I would restart from scratch, I would learn from the context where I develops.
What has been learned is useful for its legacy to the people we love, to our environment, to science, to literature.
Our contribution to the community, the hand that I extended with love, with detachment, with solidarity, with gratitude, with empathy, with justice; to create collective wisdom and that is the legacy.
Now I'm talking about what I'm going to do with my life in case the worst happens.
I know firsthand what I have learned from my husband, for example (by the way it would be a good exercise to tell him), to my beloved J.R., Galen, thank you for this proposal for that 222nd edition of the weekend engagement.
Yesterday, he had an echocardiogram and the meticulous measurement among other obvious things from the report (results).
The most important thing is that the left ventricle is the most compromised in its interventricular wall, it does not contract well so when it contracts it only achieves 30% of the oxygenated blood ejection.
It still retains normal measurements in other areas. The measurement values will let the cardiovascular surgeon know what the risk is and the action plan.
In these moments where his life is in "Everything is relative in this life" mode. I'm not crying, it's reality.
Imagine, Galen, that many times how much it is, that we put our circumstances before our well-being without knowing if we die in a road accident on the way out, we drown eating celebrating in a restaurant.
I have already said this, written it before in previous posts and in my real life I also express it every day "we are very vulnerable and we think we are powerful".
Until we accept that, we will continue to dramatize death.
His legacy in me is, what to keep doing and what not. Being full, full. In abundance of love, tolerance, and resilience. To love, to say it, to express it, to show it is very important.
Cheer up! Even if it doesn't feel right, it's okay to go at my own pace.
Janitze.🌹
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